The Ramblings of a Scottish Gopher

2011-12-24T18:00:00.000Z

I've had a birthday since my last post and I got engaged to the most wonderful woman :)...

I cannot wait to see what 2012 shall bring....

August Already

2011-08-08T23:33:00.001+01:00

Ok, Who stole summer.. It's raining again, hmm this not seeing much sun is getting boring, I wanna be able to enjoy the Garden which I can't..

March already

2011-03-03T16:00:00.000Z

Ok, where did the last three months go? They seemed to go fast, slow, fast, fast, fast.
Hard to believe it's March already, I guess that is what happens when real life gets in the way of a blog :P, well that and Facebook. I don't ever intend to link between the two either, several of my friends do and they sometimes the post update works other times it doesn't and you can get your blog reported on facebook. Not for me let me tell ya.
I'm still in Scotland although for how much longer I don't know, I'm moving to the US that is now a given, when is the big question now. It's getting the visa, a job, a place to stay, and all that in the current climate, not going to be easy, I'll just have to pray it works out.
I'm fine, although Dad's birthday is tomorrow, hard to belive it's almost 3 years since he passed away. Time to be strong again for mom and my girlfriend, well girlfriend for now, I just need to ask something then get the K-1 Visa train moving...
Until next time.

Brrrrrr

2010-12-02T20:18:00.000Z

Ok enough with the cold weather already seriously or at least keep the roads clear so we can get about... I managed to get to work today for the first time this week.
It's meant to be really warm tonight -9c (15F)

Snow Joke

2010-11-29T19:17:00.000Z

Hmm here we go, 6 inches of snow and the place grinds to a halt.
All the schools were shut today and will be shut again tomorrow probably Wednesday too. I had to dig my car out and try and get to work, no go, never seen it this bad for a number of years. I checked the local council website well when I could it appeared to have crashed or got "Snowed under" with requests. When I could check I checked to see if my Street was on the list for priority gritting since there is a bus service runs about - it was but I've yet to see a gritter up here actually I think I saw 1 bus all day and that was only on the main road.
Well I doubt I'll be able to get to work tomorrow but I will endeavour to try.

Birthday Update

2010-09-29T14:15:00.000+01:00

Well it was my birthday last Sunday, it didn't hurt. What does hurt now is the fact that my spine is screwed and nothing can be done with it. I was the x-rays they didn't look good and the only way they'd do anything for me is if I was basically in constant pain which I can see happening.
That is all for now, it's a short update as nothing really has happened :D.

Life goes on..

Is it really August already!

2010-08-05T11:49:00.003+01:00

Wow what a quick year it's been so far..
I do suppose that comes from being in Love with the most wonderful girl in the world.

I loved the 12 day holiday even through the jetlag which Hit me big style the first few days..
So a recap (for those who don't follow me on Facebook :P)
I left the UK on 2nd July at lunchtime landed in LA via NY at around 9pm PST (5am my time)... Long day, I did get some sleep on the plane and I wasn't nervous flying for the 1st time either :D.
I landed and was met by my lovely, beautiful girlfriend and a mutual friend of ours was great. To the Hotel.

Saturday 3rd July:
Santa Ana Independence Day event - Didn't get there for right at the start so missed a bit of the Guy who was playing George Washington's speech but it was really good. Got to met a real live true American Marine who is now also been ordained as a Pastor in the baptist faith, Amen to that. Got to meet a lot of people it was all a bit of a blur with faces and names, but it was good.
That evening went to Balboa Island, that was fun, the power was out so we didn't go to the place we had planned we went to the one along the coast at Huntingdon Beach - Ruby's man that burger was tasty, I fell asleep :P

Sunday 4th July:
My Independence Day - Church in the morning, early morning so I got to hear the choir practice, I'd been watching the services online for about 6 months but this was far better :D Service was much better up close and in person, Pastor Thomlinson does great sermons.. He always asks at the end when we are heads down, eyes closed praying to God, if anyone thinks if they died tomorrow they weren't sure they'd go to heaven to raise their hand. I wasn't 100% sure so hand went up... That was my independence day - the day I got Saved. Amen to that.
There was a BBQ lunch at the church too and well that was the news around the table met with thumbs up and congratulations all round. The afternoon service was moved since it was the 4th July so people could go see / set of firework, good service too :D
That evening got to see some upclose and personal fireworks - totally safe but still spectacular.

Monday 5th July:

I took the day off as well the jetlag had caught up with me and I just lazed around caught up on facebook and chatted to my beautiful girl :)
Also went to a local art show was really interesting "Living Art" don't ask me how they did it - I'm still working it out.

Tuesday 6th July:
To the local zoo with a family I'd get to know well but first the cake..
I got made a most beautiful cake done like an American Flag with the strawberries for stripes and blueberries for the other part. I also got a lovely homemade rocket done by the 2 boys, great kids too they were so excited to meet me :), their little sister it took more to impress her.. So of to the local zoo with them we went it was great got photos and got to feed the animals and pet them in the petting zoo part they had. Then Lunch and that cake it was delicious :).
Oh did I say my girl is beautiful, okay maybe once more.
Dinner that night was at Pastor's house, and his wife can cook, yum..

Wednesday 7th July:
Did some work in the classroom, making up picture CD's, all day had lunch was yum and spending time with my girl XXX.
That night I was initiated in to Patch Club which is for kids - keeps them occupied while mom and dad are at the Wednesday night service. Man was I tired out after that.
But I still had enough energy to cook dinner that night - yes I did cook.

Thursday 8th July:
Hmm a little more time alone with my girl, then to the airport to pick up her mom who was flying in to meet me:D We got on great which is a bonus I'm sure will come in handy later.. We did dinner this time my girl and her mom cooked was yummy I went for seconds. We then went to Downtown Disney to see the Fireworks show :D

Friday 9th July:
A visit to the park for lunch and a visit to the local art museum eye opening what people want you to pay for art is all I will say. Got some Professional Photos done that afternoon / evening was great.

Saturday 10th July:
An afternoon BBQ at a friends was great:D I could do that all the time, someone picks a place and cooks and sometimes I cook, saves cooking all the time and is fun, wait too late some TV station probably already does that..

Sunday 11th July:
Back to church but this time to Class, Couples Class to be exact there is a reason for this as I was sneaking out early to get in position for something real special.
It was a special day anyway the 34th Anniversary of the Church and I made it extra special by choosing the day to get Baptised and show my commitment to following Jesus Christ our Lord. Was a spectacular day I had lunch with my beautiful girlfriend and we finished off doing the CD's we'd started..
Sunday Evening's Service was great too.

Monday 12th July:
Almost time for me to head home but 1 last blast to somewhere nice
San Diego Zoo - how anyone can claim to be able to go round this in 1 day it's huge I mean the map is on A3 or maybe even a A2 sheet. I got to see maybe half the zoo in the time I was there which was most of the day.I shot loads of photos here too. With my girl all day just us was GREAT.

Tuesday 13th July:
Last full day in paradise :( brunch, some more photos done this time by our mutual friend :) and for dinner Pho Noodle - spicy but yummy:D and some more time alone with my girl to just talk over the holiday and stuff.

Wednesday 14th / Thursday 15th July:
I flew out of LA at 1pm but needed to be there for like 10am so we got to the airport said our SAD goodbyes :( I tried not to cry it was hard. The plane journey was LONG, way long as it landed at 7am UK time never doing that flight again!

It took my about 5 days to get over the jet lag and I miss not being able to just give my girl a hug and a kiss on the cheek.

The future - God alone knows what lies there for both of us.

Yes I am still alive

2010-06-16T09:55:00.003+01:00

I know I've not posted on here in a very long time but well what happens when you go on facebook and chat there, since this is still a quiet reflective place although I am going to add this into facebook and maybe just maybe interact more via here.

Well I'm in Love and Loved Up, in just over 2 weeks, 16 days to be precise I'll be flying for the first time EVER, yeah a big step for me for sure. If your wondering if I'm nervous about it, yes I am it is going to be a long couple of flights since I can't get a direct flight from here to there but it shall just have to do.
I need to start packing and Laptop/Netbook for sure would be nice if I could also check my home pc on it as well but that would be a bonus, just as long as I can put certain software on it I won't mind and non-widescreen would be a BIG bonus.
Where I go from here only God knows.

I'm Leaving On a Jet Plane

2010-04-16T20:52:00.000+01:00

Well not just now obviously but in 76 days I will be. Yeah guys 76 days until I leave this little island where well right now it was actually a nice spring day but that's rare :D.. To Fly off to see my girlfriend in Sunny California..

Update / To the spamturd!

2010-03-24T15:45:00.003Z

Okay just a quick update.

Passport - Got it, picture looks like I've just been arrested but don't they all.
Visa - Sorted in the Visa Wavier Program *can't see why they wouldn't let me in!*
Spending money in dollars - sorted Crown Currency Exchange is good :)
Flights - got them just about sorted
Accommodation - working on that.

Room is meant to be done next week was going to try and be there to help keep stuff out the way but I don't know now....

Oh and dear mr 3i PoS stop spamming comments 1 comment in 1 post would have done not 4 in 4 separate posts - do it again and your blog will be reported - one and only warning.

I'm ..........

2010-02-04T09:42:00.002Z

I'm
head
over
heels
in
L O V E
with a wonderfully kind, funny, caring, smart, beautiful and sweet young lady.
Oh just to prove God has a sense of humor about all this, the lady in question is from Orange County, California.

I'm in the midst of re-decorating / re-designing my room.

I've started going back to church.

Life right now is good, life right now is great.

To do: Passport get one, Tickets to OC, CA, USA, visa, spending money and all that
Am I nervous - yes.
Oh Reason I'm not here much is well I have facebook seems much quicker way of keeping up with people ;)

Since I never post, long posts.
I had to switch off the haloscan commenting as they are having hardware issues and are discontinuing the system they are switching to another system but I decided to export and just drop it :D

Happy New Year (okay it's a little late I know)

2010-01-11T23:23:00.003Z

Well it's now 2010 and well it looks like being a great year.
I can't think why either I just have a feeling it's gonna be a great year.
Got doctors appointment next week so we'll see how that goes, more about that then.
I had a quiet christmas / new year since I was pretty much working most of it.
It's been bitterly cold with temperatures sometimes not getting above 0C (32F), and sliding around on snow isn't that much fun while driving well the car is still in one piece and fully service I got that done just before Christmas and I got new tyres on it last weekend and well I can feel the difference..

God Bless all my readers..

A Merry Christmas to one and all

2009-12-23T22:44:00.002Z

Well the year is almost over, Christmas is just a few days away. So here is just a little message to wish all my friends through out the world a very merry Christmas, may you get what you wished for, may you have the ones you care about the most around you, raise a glass to your nearest and dearest. Enjoy a good meal in good company on the day itself, they need not be in the room but in your heart will do..

I'll now shameless borrow something I found on facebook
Last Minute Gift Suggestions: To your enemy, forgiveness. To an opponent, tolerance. To a friend, your heart. To every child, a good example. To all, charity. To yourself, respect. - Oren Arnold

Have a good one everyone, Take care
Hugs, Hugs and more Hugs to one and all. I will be thinking of you all.

November already

2009-11-01T14:27:00.002Z

Wow I really should post more often here but well I guess I've been caught up in work and stuff since I went back and well been busy doing other stuff like facebook :P..
Well today I was going to try and plant some bulbs, I managed to get a few planted last sunday but well like then it's raining so no outside work today and I do need to give the lawn a quick once over..
I also really need to get a move on and start getting Christmas presents. I know but well I better start now...
The bathroom is being remodel this week, i picked up the tiles for that yesterday, got new flooring to go down and just awaiting the work starting so it can all be done..
I'm good the meds are working good :) See the doc again on Thursday about it..

Back to Work I guess

2009-10-06T18:59:00.003+01:00

Well been back 2 days and I wish I had never taken a holiday or I had left instruction using words of 1 Sybille or less, I kid yeah not..
Had to go in early yesterday due for another reason entirely.......
I gets the pile of paperwork that's been "left" i'll still working through it I gave up yesterday it gave me a headache...
I mean the system I have in place is simple.
Job comes in, job sheet filled out with Date, job number, name, address, postcode, phone numbers, what it is fault/quote /other, new or existing customer, alarm type (if it applies), space for problem / description of job and a few other bit if they need to be filled out.. I come back to about 20 nearly blank sheets, half assed filled out not impressed, at least they were able to open the job sheet spreadsheet and get the job numbers in sequence mind you they DID not bother to LOOK at the existing job sheet file or on the spreadsheet as I found a few "duplicated" sheets not impressed.
Now I have another sheet and a template that goes with it for invoicing now I explained and WROTE down what happens when an invoice is associated with a job it's not just Invoice number XXXX any more it's Invoice Number XXXX/Job number.. with the name and address of where it's to go and the rest of the invoice filled out..
The invoices sent spreadsheet has all the invoices that have been sent out from about 2006 so we are up to a fairly highish number, now only thing i've not been able to do is get it to do on save of the spreadsheet to add a line in for that number (just incase I'm updating one) so I have to manually write this in and it thus gets the next free number.. I find a fucking duplicate don't I oh and it's not like the duplicates were done on the SAME day which could mean same time and thus not update the spreadsheet between them oh no fucking 10 days! I get it in the neck for other stuff as well... Things that well SHOULD have been SPOTTED oh about 7 fucking months ago when the timesheets were done for this year oh NO not spotted :| GFDIATH...
Woosah was said a lot yesterday and today as i get back into the groove.. Oh and I'm meant to ask if something's been paid when I've been told that's all the customer alarm renewal sheets back, all of them, I'm meant to ASK not the fucking BITCH that's seen all the checks and has them in SAGE on her laptop... oh no I'm meant to ask, fuck off.. Communication is a 2 way thing, I only get shouted at for crap she should have double checked with ME at the time not waited..
I'm never taking 2 weeks off a fucking gain unless it's when nothing needs to go out and no work needs doing then I'll do it..
But hey I had fun, the back garden is all done, 12 60 liter bags of mini wood chips later, just got to try and find a good day to clean the greenhouse glass of all the green that's on it, put up some trellising for the clematis for next year.
Oh and put some manure in the front garden and then some more back chips.
All in all I had fun and actually enjoyed doing it.
Between doing that and getting a jacket sorted for my sisters wedding this Saturday it's been fun, yeah I'm glad to back at work (NOT!).

Holiday

2009-09-22T18:38:00.000+01:00

Well i'm now on day 2 of my 2 week vacation / holiday, call it what you may and well I've done a bit of work in the garden just like I said I would on my internal list - some people thought they needed to tell me off for not doing it, well they've been stressed and other people getting on their nerves doesn't help..
I did 2 of the flower beds on Saturday afternoon after i came back from lunch and mowed the grass as well. I was out to lunch again on Sunday, well I took my godmother out as it was her birthday the day before and then I went on a long walk to work it off since it was a nice day. I did plan on doing more of the garden yesterday but the weather wasn't being particularly nice so I wasn't able to do much but I still found things to do..
Today I did managed to get out there for a few hours and i got 1 bed done, only 1 i hear you say well I wanted to make sure every god darn bit of chickweed and all the other weeds were gone and back chips were covering everything which they are...
Roll on tomorrow, when I need to be up early yet again..
Oh yeah I'm on holiday so I wake up between 6 - 7 am just like NORMAL, great.

Peace...

2009-09-14T08:12:00.002+01:00

Ah what a difference a day makes, or rather a fortnight. I can smile more okay there are times still when I feel down but these are fewer. So I think just maybe the "stuff" I'm taking is working. Yes it working I'm seeing the daylight once again.. It's nice. To those that matter thank you..

Who am I?

2009-08-04T13:48:00.002+01:00

That is a rather good question don't you think...
Let's see I'll be 35 soon, I stay will my mum, always have really..
I'm really not one for going out at all.
I don't smoke, I drink on a Friday / Saturday night IF i feel like it and can afford it.
I'm a quiet and shy person, happy to let others shine.
I was bullied at school since I was "bright","different" and yeah one of the smallest to boot.
I'm happy to help others.
I'm being the strong one for my mum and my sisters and everyone else who needs me.
I think I'm loosing my mind..
My day is wake up at around 7, get cup of tea and slice of toast for breakfast, check my e-mail and other stuff on my pc while eating breakfast, drive to work getting the paper on the way, work sometimes challenging sometimes not, drive home again, eat dinner, maybe watch the simpsons, grab a shower, sit at pc rest of the evening, go to bed and try to get to sleep maybe getting to sleep at 1am.
Saturdays I generally sleep a little later till maybe 10, shower, check e-mail (well clear the spam out), take mum to lunch then for the weekly shop, back home on the pc after putting shopping away making a cup of tea sometimes.
Sunday is like Saturday but with the lunch and shopping.
I do sometimes look after the nephew so Shopping is either done later on the Saturday or on the Sunday depends.

It's all I see to have the inclination to do.

Ya think I need to get away from it all?

Who listens to the listener...

2009-08-02T19:49:00.002+01:00

Who listens to those who listen and help others out?
Who helps those who put others before themselves, hearts on sleeves and all that.
The quiet, shy ones, those willing to stay out of the light so others may shine.

I need help, I think I do - I'm not sure..
I was plucking up the courage to ask someone out when well someone else beat me to the punch, the trouble being they are also a friend of mine, and well you don't steal your mates girl do you... I had to tell her though so she knows how I feel..
I see them "together" and it hurts, between that and the cold I have my emotional state is well "off", just a little.

I need to open up more but well I've always been one to lock it away, no-one needs to know my problems they have enough problems of their own don't they..

Just pray for me dear friends, just pray.

Another month is almost gone

2009-06-29T19:47:00.003+01:00

Hmm it's almost the end of June already, where the heck has time gone this year.

Let me see what's been happening, well couple of new people starting at work to replace some that are leaving, all I will say is this "thank god, amen!".
Oh yeah if you like cherries, try and pick up some Spanish Picota cherries, if it says anything other than "product of Spain" it lies and you should report the supplier for fraud as well these cherries have well let's just call it "international food copyright" I would say they are good but got some on Saturday afternoon with the shopping and by Sunday they were finished, nice sweet juicy and most snackable.
I'm off to see Transformers 2 on Wednesday and Harry Potter on the 15th got my tickets for both.
Oh I am no gardener I have discovered this although I've not really killed anything well maybe one or two things that weren't in the best of health and got a little dry although I am watering everything pretty much every day that it needs it, if I not too frazzled! I have been picking fresh peas as well although they were meant to be planted outside of the greenhouse someone didn't think right and well lets just say they grew a lot quicker than they thought and thus got stuck in there since it would have been foolish to try and move them as I discover when I tried to move one slightly it's now almost dead, hanging on in there.. there is one corner that pretty much dead it's was a stupid place to plant something it's where the outside tap is in the corner where you don't really pay it any attention so not really my fault, my sister is the gardener not me..
Oh Mel, Laura, Barb I've had to repot those lilies you sent and I think I may have to split 1 maybe 2 of them into smaller plants as they are getting rather big and out growing what pots I can find, maybe I should go get some more pots?

Evening All

2009-06-07T17:29:00.002+01:00

Well I finally managed it, finally 685 quests completed in Kalimdor - Loremaster of Kalimdor completed and since I've done the Loremaster of Eastern Kingdoms, the Loremaster of Outland and the Northrend Loremaster acheivements already I can now use the title "Loremaster" :) and I got a kick ass smart Tabard to go with it :)

Me happy bunny, had a "guildmate" help me, well I say guildmate but well I'm not in that guild anymore due to well a complete asshat who's pissed me off once too often and well now apparently feels "bad" about me leaving, shame since I said "I won't be back" and I won't be no more "Ancient" guild for me... I have all the people I call "friend" on my in game friends list as well as various other places too so I can still reach them anytime.

Good Morning all

2009-05-17T09:33:00.002+01:00

Morning all, it's a lovely sunny may morning here right now.
I did feel like doing some work in the garden but then my lower back decided it wasn't in the mood and now feels all tensed up, not good really..

I need to figure a way of getting rid of all the brickwork that isn't required in the garden taking it to the local recycle centre was the plan BUT my poor car just well can't take much of it at time, the joys eh... My sister had the idea of a skip but to me there just isn't enough to warrant a skip even although now I see it it's a lot ARGH!

Well I'll be getting a call at some point about that no doubt, speaking of calls I should either get a call or a text from my workmate at some point saying he's a dad again, I feel for the kid already....

That is all for now, I'm going to find me some coffee...

When things just don't work anymore

2009-04-27T18:51:00.002+01:00

Hmm well last night was the final straw, I couldn't figure out why the my connection was so patchy, slow, sluggish or just STOPPED! You ever tried to connect somewhere and waited a minute or 3 for a page to "Load" and this is just a standard nothing fancy page. I figured it was either the network card in the machine, the cable or the router, I redid the ends on the cable - nothing.
I managed to get drivers for another Network card to load up and run on here and tried that - nothing.
So figured it's either still the cable or it's bleeding router.
It was the bleeding router, I suppose I should have realised I guess it wasn't build for the load I've put through it, well it would speed up after a while but then would just go slow, fast, slow, fast, now replaced and the setup replicated on the new one as much as required.

Pages load instantly or pretty much instant now. I can talk again on the guild ventrillo with out it a pp e a ring to cu tt o u tt etc..
Happy Bunny again...
Will need to test all the ports are forwarded correctly of course.

Slight Panic!

2009-04-18T16:50:00.000+01:00

Okay what would you do if you've just blow all the dust bunnies that have gotten into your PC and then went to fire it back up and well it works for like 2 minutes and then reboots on you or worse your monitor goes to sleep yet the pc is still on and the mouse / keyboard don't waken it up...
I had this, I swapped the Graphics Card out thinking it's ****ed, no that worked then rebooted on me, and then again and then again..
I left it off till today when I was going to see a mate so took machine along anyway..
Power Supply Fan, hmm it's not turning it had stopped working and was thus not actually cooling down the PSU and that's why my poor PC was acting all odd
All sorted now nice new 120mm fan in the PSU and we are good to go.

The catch up thread

2009-03-30T20:19:00.003+01:00

Okay I do apologize for not posting this past week but well I've been busy
I've had my aunt up for the week and I've sorry but I've probably updated people on Facebook more often...
Well Tuesday was mum's birthday, I won't tell you her age, just old will do..
I must admit she is getting worse, imagine your kid when they were oh 3-4-5-6 yr old and wanting attention more and more, this is what mum seems to be doing if she's not center of attention she'll do something nothing drastic just something so she's center of attention once more and well I thought I could go from, if you'll pardon the expression here, 0-bitch in 2.2 seconds, mum does it way faster and later on looks like nothing has happened, and probably wouldn't remember if asked.... No wonder my wonderful sisters, oh how I do really LOVE them honest, don't want to come near.
I mean there are ways of sighing, it's a long drawn out one and well it really gets on probably both my sisters nerves when they are on the phone...
I'm not making it up here but I do believe for week my aunt was here she actually got worse..
I mean take for example Sunday there, we'd just come back from shopping and I had already said to my sister I'd take the nephew bowling, now mother knows most if not ALL weekends at some point I take nephew out somewhere, I said to her where I was going, I named the town where my sister says, I say town more a village squished between 2 towns really, and she though I said Rosyth, now how she got that from what I said I've no Idea, I said no not Rosyth, and said the name again a little louder,
so your going to Barbara's then, I went Yeah, the reply was Well I hardly though you were going to Wendy's and started of a question, I went I'm going to take the nephew out, I mean it was Obvious what was going to be said, and I said that, well "BOOM" stack blown, from nice to nasty in 1.5 seconds flat, give or take, and she ranted on, I just let here, "... away you go and come back and get up for work in the morning and come back I'll be here...."
I switched to bitch mode and snapped right back with something she'd said to us, "You don't like it when we speak to you like that, so I don't like it when you do that" or something I was slightly MIFFED...
Oh away you go....
At which point the car key I had in my hand was thrown backwards bouncing off the door not far away, I went I won't bother...
Oh I, make me feel bad .....
In truth I was shaking with anger and I knew It wouldn't have been fair on anyone seeing me like that so I just had to "Zen" a little, I had something to do on my pc and did that and went away, I erm "LOST" at bowling totally, no focus at all.
I came back after dropping nephew off and well mum was in bed and was totally normal again like it never happened..
Her memory is shot, she claims to have pretty much a permanent headache..
Hopefully the Doctor's Appointment that's been arranged will sort this out, it's with the Doctor that don't take no crap, who I've yet to meet, I may suggest that he give me a call just to put his mind at ease that nothing is being made up ya know..

Time to go Zen some more,

Valistar Blood Elf Frost Mage from the Guild Ancient on Boulderfist Realm.
Fire and Ice are a dangerous combination didn't you know.

One Year today / Something new

2009-03-22T19:08:00.001Z

It's exactly a year to the day, it's also Mothering Sunday here in the UK, so today is HARD..

I was going to make a new post but 2 posts in 1 day isn't something I do..
So I'll conjoin what else I have to say to here

I'm on Facebook, that is all.

Pause........

2009-03-04T22:15:00.001Z

I think I must have put myself on pause today, yesterday was okay nephew made it to 11.
Today was a day for pausing and reflecting on stuff, why well today my dear dad would have been 76..
Yeah I did cry a little but that was only due to a friend telling me about a phone call they'd gotten which sucked..

Now it just getting tougher,
My Aunt is coming up in just over 2 weeks to "help" out,I have to pick her up so I'll be telling her to back off as much as possible not take over as mum needs to do stuff herself to actually exercise even just a little.

The joys..

Post Valentines Day Post

2009-02-21T15:50:00.004Z

Well it was last Saturday but I kind of forgot to post then, lets see how exciting the past few weeks have been...
Well we have the new car, nice isn't it.

Mother fell again, all I heard was the thud and she was at the bottom of the stairs having had her sleeping pill and had a few drinks :| she has been told that if she wants anything from downstairs to ask me and I'll get it, she also decided to empty the dishwasher first..
Well she was all bruised but nothing major apart from what she had on her plate being all the way down the stairs it's a light brown carpet and she had black cherry or raspberry yogurt, it's been cleaned Today. So I spent the next day looking after her as she was all sore, this was after mother was told off by my lovely sister.
Ah Valentines day, well lets see I did lunch and shopping with mother and went bowling with the nephew that's how exciting it got for me although I did cheer someone up by giving them a quick call - Hey Laura :)..
This week has been well crap as I've not been feeling brilliant actually make that the past fortnight it's going..
There was a meeting hastily called on Wednesday that well didn't go according to anyone else but MY plan, needless to say my sisters are trying to pin it on mother, saying she wanted the meeting, I don't know who to believe anymore again. I don't think that will surprise anyone, oh wait I know why I am so much like my father...
OH yeah baby you better believe that one, not a day goes by I don't think about him in some way, well I look at myself and well I am my father's double...
I'm slowly sorting stuff out in a way that helps me, just not fast enough for anyone else, but HEY TOUGH...

That is all..
I'm off to do "Lunch" and then shopping..

Happy Dance....

2009-02-04T19:10:00.002Z

*Does the Happy Dance*
Literally just picked my new Ford Ka, hmm let see
Air Con - Check
Central Locking - Check,
CD Player - Check
Smart assed look - Check :)
Quiet Engine - Check - no noisy exhaust :P

May post picture later it's a bit dark to post one now..
Looks like I'll be poor for a while...
Heck it's worth every penny...
Now just to find the owners manual.....

Got a brand new motor....

2009-02-01T20:39:00.002Z

Well nearly new it's an upgrade of the one I have at the moment. I don't have it just now but come Wednesday evening I will be the owner of a nice 07 plate Ford Ka with well about 7,000 miles on the clock which is nothing, given the Ka I'll be leaving behind has about 66,500 miles on it and it could easily do another 12,000 if the bodywork could have held up..
I looked on a few websites, had a look at prices, was going to phone around a few places but the 1st place I phoned won me over right away saying there was an 07 plate Ford Ka that had just come in. It's a nice metallic red color absolutely beauty and since I already know how it drives it will be a real sweet drive. The only thing stopping me was the price nearly £ 5000.00 but I looked at it and well kinda no way back once I'd seen it.. So I've got the cash together and will pay it in full when I go to pick it up. They are being generous and giving me £100.00 for my old car which isn't bad given the age and the fact it's gotten a bit of rust.

Does the happy dance, I got a loan from the bank of mom, hey her idea not mind I didn't go asking for it she offered and I well I don't normally do this but well she knew I needed a car and that the "cash" would be the issue, so I'll pay her back but minus the lovely interest I'd normally have to pay, I just hope the transfer goes through without a hitch else I'm screwed!

I know I've been kinda busy

2009-01-20T21:05:00.002Z

Well dear reader today is a monumental day, the day the most powerful man on the planet isn't a white Texan, some guy called Barack Obama, Mr President good luck, your gonna need it.

In other news, more important to me at least it was decided to roll out what I'd been working on, tweaking and screaming at over the past few months. Decided to put it live and see what breaks since a bit of it is "Hacks" to get around stupid IE 5/6 issues I know who uses IE 6 - I did ask and someone does still use it, it works they say so why change so I coded for it that was the freaking challange since IE 6 doesn't understand "transparent" images of anything more complex than a gif - animated or otherwise - 1 color is transparent and that's it loads of fixes put in place..
It went live a few bugs found, fixing them major one I've just fixed it didn't resize the page if you resized the browser it does now to a point there is a minimum to which it will go, i'm going to be decreasing that minimum so it fits in a 1024 x 768 screen (with a graphs resized) - standards is going to be 1280x 1024 although I'm going to sneak it to be my screen res which is in between them both.

http://stats.free-dc.org/stats.php?page=index - the index for my team stats pages..
It's been voted the as one of the best stats sites...

Happy New Year 2009

2009-01-03T19:51:00.003Z

Well folks it's now 2009, not the 13th month of 2008 just so you know...
Hmm I got a few things for Christmas, not much but then again I wasn't expecting much.

Christmas was interesting, I got to set up my nephew's new TV so he could play his new PS 3.
It has plugged into it a PS3, PS2, Nintendo Wii, a PC and a Personal Video Recorder - Digital recorder with inbuilt tuner for Digital TV..
I said later on after I'd set it up as a "joke", that the only reason I was here was to set it up, to which I was "TOLD", "I could have set it up", let's just say that's the last time I set anything up, I just "LOOKED" and went "Fine!" only to be told off once again for being "Moody!".. Well fuck me... Whatever!.. That particular sister is starting to piss me off, well she did try and sell me her car, didn't want it, did think about it more I thought the less I liked the car, she now has a newer one, So What.
I was working boxing day, off the weekend and working last week apart from New Years Day itself, that in itself was a first never had both off at work before.
Oh I've hit level 80 in World of Warcraft with my Mage, now due to other things I really won't be playing him much, just to piss people off, well if other people in my guild will talk about me behind my back and have me demoted from officer the screw them. They gotta problem with me they should say to me direct, Never mind my loss in the end but well so what I just don't care anymore may go find something else to do.

I know like reading the latest Kinsey Milhone book I got myself looks a corker with a really good twist, I mean she's good but the other one is better and playing her at her own game!

Anyway dear reader,

Have a great 2009. I do hope you've not to much of a hangover :-P. I have a bottle of Bailey's to open yet.

I have code to write and I think I'll just go find some music to listen to while I do all that..

May peace be with you in you heart.

Gordon

Merry Christmas to one and all (Part 2)

2008-12-24T19:15:00.003Z

Now after I finished that post I realised I had probably left people out. Now I have not deliberately though..
Now here I do hope to change that, I missed out many of my CL:1 friends and real life friends.....

To Rusty & Rose better know to me as Rusty and his boss :P, well she does wield a heavy bottomed skillet rather well I here and can load a rifle pretty quick too, well they is from Texas after all. I hope the new job works out better than the last one, and that next year I hope me n rose can actually figure out what the heck each other is talking about.
To Ronnie, dude you've been through so much crap this year I hope next year is a whole lot better, or at least the nurses stay "cute" ;).

To Sheen, may you continue to confuse the newcomers in the lobby into thinking your something your not.. I still remember when I first heard you on voice that was interesting.

To Mr & Mrs Spingles, I hope you 2 have a wonderful 2009, oh that and that Calvin the cutie that he is behaves himself, although I doubt it very much but you'll love him anyway. Oh that and you find out the "vegans" sneak bacon rolls now and then..

To Scores, Girl may you never change, keep that "cheeky grin" on your face even if it's only "PC" that gets to see it...

To Savoy, Chin up, things will work out in the end, have a great 2009.

To Louie, May you and Sibby have a great 2009 in Fl, and may those with homework learn to use Google rather than CL:1...

To Mark & Emma, I hope 2009 is as much fun as 2008, I'm sorry I've not been in touch very often but well I've had other things on my mind.

To Richard & Philippa, may 2009 bring you closer together even if you are miles apart.

To Barry, mate keep up the good work, have a wonderful 2009.

To Andy & Karen, you 2 keep loving each other and that sweet child of yours in 2009.

To Jenny & Gregor, may 2009 bring nothing but joy to you and "Gregor" Jnr, even although he do look a lot like his mama, all I can say is when he grows up, he'll break a few hearts just a few..

And Finally this post wouldn't be complete without a mention of my Best mate in the whole world, and I got a few of them and his lovely wife, and their beautiful new ba boy. So To Stu & Annelise may 2009 bring new wonders into your lives, new discoveries, wondrous 1sts and so forth..

Hugs To one and all

And to all a Good night.

Merry Christmas..

Gordon

Merry Christmas to one and all

2008-12-22T07:35:00.004Z

Well it's almost that most wondrous time of the year again.
Now I did have a great post to put here but well if hasn't gone and left the building just now, I guess I should really write them down when I think of them and post THAT day!

To all my friends far and wide, blogger and non-blogger alike Merry Christmas. The following are in no particular order.

To Moogie smile, keep the chin up, it will get better, those angelic children will become angelic once more it will just take a little while, have a great christmas and may you be always able to find the exact thing you need at the moment you need it.

To Barb, dear barb I think your finally there where you've always wanted to be, may birddog continue to serve you well and may midnight and nino finally realize that you love them both in equal measure but in different ways. May you never stop writing on your blog as it's always a pleasure to read even when you ranting about something I can normally see why. May the bean always be perfect

To Melonie may the work you do have continue to have an impact on the lives it crosses and may it reward you in a way you didn't think possible. I hope that all the kids continue to know that you love them all dearly even when they've done something really bad / stupid and they are banish to their room.

To Shy, may things all work out and may your son continue to surprise you in a nice way of course. Keep the faith it's hard going but just keep the faith and know that no matter how many miles away you are, I'm always thinking about you at some point in the day.

To Katt, hmm what can I say other than this dear friend smile, even in the face of adversity smile and keep on smiling, never give up on your ideas people will come round to them it just may take some time.

To Marie, we touched base but once this year and that was enough to keep me smiling fo r the rest of the day, thank you for being a friend and introducing me to erm some "band" called "Snow Patrol" I never can thank you enough for that.

To Jean-Luc, may 2009 be as exciting as 2008 on you blog with all its twists and turns. Oh and try and keep my away from the Klingon Bloodwine and Romulan Ale and keep me away from all Ferengi, lest I remind them of a few of the nastier "Rules of Acquisition".. Live long and prosper.

To my Free-DC team mates, you guys Rock each and everyone of you. Just a few special mentions to Bok - thanks man for letting me loose on the stats and giving me something else to do for the team. I'll keep polishing 'em up I promise. IB, ye old Target Butt you may not understand all this new fangled DB stuff but you still manage to get there in the end. AMDave, those charts of yours get any more shiny and well erm we'll have the #1 slot of DC project stats on the planet, oh wait we already DO :D.. HelixVonSmelix, dude to you major kudos to you and that machine will rock when I get another PSU, the one in my main machine went funny. Also to Team Seti-USA I take my hat of to you guys, I know I don't visit the forum much but I've been busy making the shiny, shinier :)...

To Junebugg, You keep me smiling with your jokes and funny e-mails don't stop sending them, just know that most of them make me crack a smile. Let's hope 2009 is a little less windy in 'bama.

To Hannah, It is amazing how people meet up in blogspace, how close they can end up no matter how far away they are. I do hope everything works out for you next year since we both know this year wasn't very good one for both of us.

To Laura, dear sweet Laura, bet ya though I had forgotten you there didn't ya, not a chance. I know we've both been busy this year and keeping in touch has been some what fragmented I'll try my best to sort that. Smile and give that dear sweet mum of yours a hug from me for simply bringing the world a wonderful, beautiful young lady.

And Finally this list wouldn't be complete without my mentioning my adopted lil sis.
To Jen, I know it hurts, it hurts a lot, I'm now writing this though misty eyes as I remember things. Just know this even although I am not exactly nearby just know I do think about you and your mum, I'm glad I know you, you and Laura are some of a select few who can manage to cheer me up no matter what and I can only try and do the same for you.

So to one and all have a Merry Christmas and remember a smile costs nothing and hugs are on the house.

Hugs to you all.

G

It's a wrap...

2008-12-14T11:53:00.002Z

Yes it's that time again, all the presents are bought and now all I have to do is wrap them up which is always fun since well I rarely buy things that are regularly shaped it's quite funny. This year however I've don't think I've gotten anything odd to wrap up, no wait I have those chocolates from Thornton's to wrap up. What is it about that place and Christmas that means I can't go past the shop without going in and buying stuff for people.

Christmas Cards

2008-12-08T23:38:00.002Z

Well To anyone in the UK wanting to send cards out to your friends / relations in oz, well it might not get there for Christmas "par avion" as you've missed the last date for sending 'em, those for the US / Canada well you got until the 10th and Europe is pretty much the 12th.
Just a little reminder to my readers from overseas that you cards have indeed been posted and you should get them before Christmas and yes before you wonder the individual cards are there too, I started it so I will continue it that way at least until they've moved out :P

To those who's address I don't have, I am thinking about you no matter how far away you are even if you don't blog...

Holding it together even if a bit shaky

2008-11-23T14:20:00.003Z

Well it's getting towards that time of year again, Christmas :)....
Well I thought today I'll go and get all the Christmas cards and start and get them ready to post out to my far away friends and their families. Yes I mean You dear reader, well many of you, some of you may read this and be disappointed that no card appears, I can hardly send a proper card to an e-mail address so some of you may end up with e-cards.
I was in my usual card shop getting cards, the boxes of card for friends, and the special ones for family. Well there I got smacked with it right in the kisser, "To Mum and Dad at Christmas" or similar and well it got me for a moment, I had a little cry to myself which thankfully no-one saw and composed myself once again when Slade - Christmas Time came on, that helped :) a lot.

So dear friends, when your sending out your cards this year, remember those who've lost someone this year.

So across the miles, virtual or otherwise here a great big hug from me to you guys out there, keep on smiling.

G

Update: One Brave Teenager

2008-11-20T23:45:00.002Z

Well someone has stepped forward and come up with the required money for the health insurance so Hannah can visit Disneyland and not have to worry about any medical bills
If I read the article correctly it up to 3 million pounds of insurance cover or maybe it was higher still..

In other news -
Apparently someone leaked the BNP members list - Ophs, I mean I can't see why no-one would want people to know they are "members" of a party that well is Neo-Nazi in nature, hates non-whites, but is unfortunately a "legal" political party here but well shall we say certain professions ban you from being a member of it as it could possibly "color" your judgment, get it...

The Scandal of "Baby P" who was basically tortured to death by his evil twisted stepfather, his mother and a lodger they had staying with them it was "missed" by the local Social Services and it had been noted that social services did have chances to save the baby but no they sent it back for more torture as well "that's the right thing to do" - Political correctness / EU Human right bollox are to blame and they are wondering why the "Public at large" are baying for their blood in this, even if they didn't actually kill the baby, they should still hang their collective heads in SHAME, I mean a doctor examined him 2 days before he died and missed a broken spine..
The 4 or 5 involved in this are basically being very kindly asked to Resign..
There have been a few cases like this over the years so it proves that lessons learned from previous cases haven't been learned at all..

Another "Scandal" is the government allowing the merger of HBOS with Lloyds TSB I mean with a little more cash injection from the government HBOS could have been kept independent but NO screw over the customers... If this all goes up "shit creek without the proverbial paddle" Mr Brown - my vote will go else where...
A little note here - I do have the power to vote him out of his parliamentary seat..

Whatever next...

One Brave Teenager

2008-11-11T19:05:00.002Z

I normally don't write 2 posts in a day but this story touched me..
A 13 year old girl who had a rare form of leukemia diagnose when she was 5 and the resulting treatment left her with heart problems has won the right to die even although she could get a donor heart which would prolong her life.
She did so because she'd be on drugs the rest of her life to keep the immune system from rejecting the new heart and since she's had to stop taking the other medication the leukemia could return, she stopped it as it would interfere with the pacemaker she has fitted.
The High Court ruled she was old enough to make her own mind up as she didn't want have to beware the rest of her life that the leukemia could return and she's sick of being in and out of hospital as well and has already defied the doctor's by living longer than they said she would. She wants to stay at home and die quietly not tubed up in some hospital far away from home.
She has been offered a trip to Disneyland Florida IF she can find someone willing to cover the special travel insurance she'd need to fly with.
Hannah Jones your are brave beyond measure.
BBC News Link to the story.

Remberance Day / Veteran's Day

2008-11-11T18:46:00.002Z

90 Years seems a long time yet it's 90 years to the day that World War I - The War to end all wars ended..
All the dead and those who fought in that war and the wars since ask for is once a year to fall silent for 2 minutes..
I again link in this beautiful and powerful song by Terry Kelly who actually saw someone totally ignore the kind call for 2 minutes to remember the dead..

2 minutes of silence is all they request,
2 minutes from your day once a year,
It's a simple request, not a big ask is it?
For those who have fought and died,
For those who have fought and survived.
So that you and I can have the freedoms we have,
So that we have the rights to do what we wish.
They've fought and they've died so that we might be free,
They've fought and they've died so others might taste freedom.
2 minutes of time, is all that they ask.
2 minute is nothing, it's a pittance of time.

To all the brave men and woman who've fought and died in all the wars and who are out fighting right now for other peoples freedom I salute you.
I was reading a story today about a solider who was hit by a rocket and as he was being treated ripped off the mask and demanded to go back out even although he was gravely injured, he didn't make it and was posthumously awarded a medal for his selfless actions.
That's just one of many stories I've read of bravery, often carried out without even thinking just done, they can say at least I tried to save the lads around me.

Lest we forget, some never stop fighting the war just remember that next time you see and old guy he might have fought in the war somewhere.
Just thank them for doing the job they signed up for, protecting the country they live in.

Film Review : James Bond - Quantum of Solace

2008-11-06T18:59:00.003Z

Hmmm what can I say about this film, opening titles so typical Bond, let's just say I wouldn't like to see the repair bill on the car, IF it was actually repairable - bullet holes, cracked windscreen, missing door, scraped paintwork oh but don't worry Bond got the guys chasing him by shooting them and taking them out in style..
Now I had heard the title track music on the Radio many times and well it sounded okay if not a little quirky, Most if not all of the Bond Title music can be played and it sounds normal this just didn't however it fits in perfectly with the titles.
Now on to the movie which basically follows right on from where Casino Royale left us.. With a dead MI6 agent, a "shadowy" organization who we know little about and have no idea how wide spread they are..
Bond gets to the bottom of it by pretty much kicking the info out of them, which of course doesn't impress "M" very much although at times everyone is looking over their shoulder as it seems even MI6 isn't immune to have this shadowy group in it's midst - I mean they all come up clean on the security reports and yearly tests, so who's not to trust them.
Of course it all unravels once Bond gets on the Inside track and well has a word with them that maybe just maybe they should pick some place a little less public - and well gets a few nice snaps as people leave.
High speed car chases, guns, girls it's all in there, he calls in a few favours, goes semi-rogue although "M" always trusts him to know what he's doing, even after having her collar felt by the Foreign Office...
All in All a good film - go see it, can't wait to see what they have Bond doing next.

Networking....

2008-11-02T23:37:00.001Z

I got my network fixed eventually, it's been a busy week so forgot to post it was fixed..
Stranded Cat5 cable has a slight advantage over the solid core stuff in that it can still work (even if only just) with a few strands broken where as solid core either works or doesn't and is much less fun to work with...
I also went to see the new James Bond yesterday and will post later about that..

I got a networking issue..

2008-10-22T07:58:00.003+01:00

Hmm my normal connection to the net is being temperamental, no not the actually connection from my modem to the net but the connection from this computer to said modem / router as it's well dropping data packets which is normally not noticed but it does tend to slow things down a little or a lot depending on what I'm doing, most times i don't notice it but been getting "this path is too deep" errors when transferring files across between pc's or really slow transfers if using other tools. The one major thing where it's extremely noticeable is when I go to talk to my guild mates on "ventrilo" as well my "ping" time goes from a nice 31ms, to well 15-16s i.e 15-16,000 ms and keeps going till all it says is "ping:" nothing else..
I've tried new network card - still the same.
I've tried different operating system to make sure it's not the driver / OS that's the issue - still the same..
I've tried another PC and put ventrilo on that - worked fine, proved connection was okay..
So I'm thinking it's either the 10-15m cable I have installed or one or other of the ends which are machined on and I don't got no ends so can't easily replace them, also replacing them is a freaking royal pain in the ass.

So at some point soon I'm going to either have to replace the cable - easy enough just about as it runs the full width of the house, i.e full length of my room, into the cupboard up the wall into the attic and then along to the other end of the house to my modem/router, or do I get a wireless card and swap routers to a wireless one which I have got!

can we say ouch! update

2008-10-16T22:36:00.002+01:00

Okay I tried the dentures in for 4-5 days but nope they ain't working to smart, taking them out causes great pain as the right hand one of the 2 metal clips that are on it, that clip over existing teeth, digs into my gum pretty much right about where the tooth they put on that side is so thus chewing on that side isn't much fun as the tooth jabs right into the jaw and well it's freaking painful. I can't really chew on the left either or rather I can it's just a bind and well after a few moments of chewing using my tounge to move the food around as well It don't wanna move too much it gets sore too..
Well soup, noodles, bananas and the occasional bites of actual real food meant it was a real bind...
So I've taken them out let them know it hurts like hell and I'll try them again in a day or so i.e the weekend when i'm not eating so much got an adjustment appointment next week so we'll see what that brings. Oh and the clip in the gum I think it's scratched the gum..

can we all say ouch!

2008-10-10T18:25:00.002+01:00

I was at the dentist today, to get 1 tooth out and my lovely new denture fitted.
Hmm right now the meds have worn off and i can feel the tooth that was yanked out if ya know what I mean.. The denture fits well enough I suppose, I had better as it darn well felt like it was cutting into one side before the final adjustments were made.
I've to keep it in place for 12hrs and i've got the numbers to phone if I have any problems which I truly hope I don't. I thought about it and I've got some ice cold cider which I may/ may not drink. I'm currently eating chicken soup as it's about all I think I can handle right now..
Oh and wait for it this my 3rd post in as many days, whatever next.

Happy birthday Jen

2008-10-09T18:30:00.004+01:00

Happy Birthday to my unoffically adopted lil sis Jen.
I know this year hasn't been a good one for either of us but you can make it.
Sure there will be a fair share of crap days, just hope today isn't one of them..
You know i'm just a call away..

Hugs to you and your mum.

With just a little bit of love, no a whole heap of it..

G

Happy Birthday Chickie

2008-10-08T19:11:00.003+01:00

I hope I've gotten the right day else Moogie will tell me off, or worse chickie will tell me off..

Happy Birthday young lady, a pretty young lady at that.

Hugs from Uncle G...
There I think that should do it...

How Kind....

2008-09-30T19:38:00.004+01:00

Someone did a good piece on the death of Paul Newman, he could fit into any role and make it his own, yet his first oscar was for the "Color of Money"...
Now I was reading the newspaper today and came across an article that made me smile.

"It's rare to come across a completely selfless act - just a random act of kindness.
So when the late actor Paul Newman's daughter Lissy said the best way to keep her father's memory alive was to go out and do just that."

The article then went on to test that theory by testing it in various cities around scotland some places were more perceptive than others of course.

So go on make "someone's day", buy a coffee for someone, pay for someone's parking, just give someone some flowers and the like.

Speaking of birthdays

2008-09-26T13:25:00.002+01:00

Well moving swiftly on from my last post to this one, yes folks it's that time of year again, it's my BIRTHDAY...
I'm alive which is about all I can really ask for :D..

It's someone's birthday tomorrow

2008-09-22T12:30:00.004+01:00

I know I've used the title before or something similar but well it is...
Head over to here and wish the prettiest girl I know a happy birthday..

Speaking of which I'm still on holiday and I got mine soon, it doesn't hurt :P

GO give someone a BIG hand

2008-09-16T00:43:00.004+01:00

Go over to my friend Barb's blog and congratulate her won't you she did the 3-day cancer walk at the weekend.

Oh yeah and I'm on holiday (well from work)....

Okay some photos as promised

2008-09-06T15:51:00.002+01:00

Well I know I did promise you some photos so here they are I hope...
It's a mixed bag of before and after shots, I just set up a flickr slideshow it seemed the easiest way.

Now it's totally finished...

2008-08-24T17:33:00.002+01:00

Well this is really just a short, short update to say yeah the house is now totally and utterly finished everything is in it's place and as soon as I can I'll try and put some photos up, pre / post.
I'll warn ya now the pre ones are a bit scary and not for the faint hearted lol... It's like if this was your house would you really wanna be here...

In other news, well work is work got everything in place for as much automation as possible I do hope..
I got most of it written down some place too incase I'm off.. I really should re-write it in a neater multipage format so anyone can take over if needed without having to call anyone, i.e me or the accounts manager as well she's a pain in the ass and I'd get it in the neck for not explaining / leaving notes, probably will anyway but I'm not giving her a fucking excuse to be rude as fuck to me, only person who can get away with that is the boss, he never would be rude, not intentionally.
Oh yeah it's someone's birthday tomorrow as well..
So you may wish to slip over to her blog and wish her a happy birthday, I won't say how old she is as well I'm too much of a gentleman for that.

So Peace out for now dear readers (oh and if ya do read me sometimes it's nice to drop me a comment or an e-mail)

Finished!!!!

2008-08-17T18:24:00.002+01:00

Yeah, that's right our poor surely demented by now decorator has finished the house, all that needs doing now is the new carpet laid in the spare room, the new shower screen to go up, a items to swapped over in the bathroom which can wait till the screen goes up.. I would recommend this guy to anyone but hmm I think he's booked till this time next year or there abouts, yeah he's that popular and he's good..
So I can at least now relax a bit more... yeah maybe just maybe...

News....

2008-08-04T19:25:00.003+01:00

Yes well I am alive, functioning as a human no idea!
Work right now is crap someone doing my head in, it's causing me grief and argh I just wanna forget work so I've been playing lots of WoW and CoH etc and throwing myself into doing other stuff.

The house is coming along nicely, apart from my mother and my sisters doing each others heads in they are so alike it's unreal.

I had to go and get another keyboard and mouse as well I think I wore the mouse out or I didn't charge the batteries enough so it kept screwing up..

My Six degrees of seperation from

2008-07-22T23:58:00.002+01:00

Once more with feeling.
Yes Folks I finally did it I think.
I went to visit Moogie then I hopped over to On the Go Mom then to Miss Zoot then onward to Below the Eight and ended up at the charming blog that is Once more with feeling.
I choose a link from my blogroll and then went randomly about I could have ended up anywhere with in the blogsphere on any blogspot, typepad or Movable Type Blog.
Moogie because she's a cool lady :), On the Go Mom because well sounds so much like Moogie, Miss Zoot what can I say semi-random there as she transends being a cool mommy how she manages to fit it all in and how as she said did they reach the ages they have it's like where's the time gone. Miss Zoot, Moogie & "Mom" yeah time just vanishes when your having FUN, Below the Eight well what can I say Interesting Magazine article there for sure.
Finally on to Once More with Feeling, I remember an episode of Buffy called just that made me curious to see what it really was yeah life can seem like that you just wish sometimes you could do the same thing again with just a touch more feeling.

That is all, so pardon the "random" comments I may have left.

so what have I been upto then...

2008-07-20T15:07:00.003+01:00

I know I've be some what complacent in regard to posting here and reading other peoples blogs, Laura sorry sweetie, Moogie, Barb, Carmi & a few others I do get around to reading yours eventually... Call it the 5hr time difference...
Well that the fact I can't access it at work, the frown upon most things at work or rather due to the fact we connect through someone else's BB link they have websense which locks down anything remotely FUN or that would give power to the users like computer security websites, forums etc..
Also I've been busy coding stuff for my DC team - Free-DC :D, I don't know If I've mentioned this before but I will mention it now as I got suckered into helping a little then a little more and I'm loving it to be honest. Well except when something is missing that would make life easier or so I'd though until I got the missing part downloaded and installed - I mean the server we run on is in Arizona - Timezone "America/Arizona" now what I'm trying to do for 3 potentially different times is instead of it saying for example : Last Update: 06:14 July 20th, 2008 MST it says for me 11:14 July 20th, 2008 BST now I can get it to 11:14 July 20th, 2008 but it still says MST after it and one tiny part that is meant to allow me to convert from one timezone to another doesn't appear to want to play nice and keeps telling me very politely that it can't do that despite the fact I've looked at it and for all intents and purposes it's correct ARGH!
I've done other things like drop in backgrounds in to stats

See nice yes and also been redoing the layout of all the stats and adding themes and other little features that are fully configurable i.e you can set your theme, but only a few can actually change the themes around.
Well that and helping the poor guy who was basically doing it solo, the stats team is now 4 not 2 I'm learning as I go not hit the "big" stuff yet I'll just keep with the front end prettiness thanks all the actually grabbing of the stats data, the parsing it into something we can work with, checking it against the data we already have and updating as required not been there yet as I've never dealt with the language involved before, PHP + MySQL is bad enough along with a bit of linux command line stuff, Secure FTP / Secure SHell windows keeps me on my toes...
Well the house is coming along, we've stopped for a week just because well it was decided it was best.
Back to it next week...
Oh well that and I've been playing World of Warcraft some more as well as new game (well to me) called Command of Heroes - World War II style game where all I will say is the language is "Adult" - the polite version is "let's throw a grenade at them" ... "Let's give them a ****ing pineapple..."
Anyway back to giving things a bit of a chill - flash fried and quick frozen to death... I love being a frost mage.

2 down, 4 to go

2008-07-15T07:48:00.002+01:00

Okay folks I am alive, just been a bit busy last weekend as well it all came together finally well just about.
Sitting room is finally done and dusted although the decorator we got in temporarily won't be getting back as he patched the wallpaper badly, let's just say I could have done a better job at the patching as it don't match wouldn't be so bad if it was like in a corner where it wouldn't be seen but this is in the middle of the wall. Never mind it will get fixed. I put the new lights up, side lights went up no problem, went to put new centre light up only to discover that one of the lampshades was missing and another had a crack in it, I THOUGHT SOMEONE was supposed to have CHECKED all them, and the receipt is somewhere "safe" thankfully was able to return it for a direct replacement which is now up and looks good. Carpet fitter was in on Friday so the carpet is down in there as well as the stairs so I can actually go up and down stairs without this horrible echo of creaky wooden stairs. Saturday saw the arrival of the new furniture so now we have a comfortable place to sit down, dining room table and chairs sits nicely in one corner, a glass display cabinet in another and new matching TV stand in a third. So all in all done and dusted. I had to escape on Saturday thought as well I needed to swap the light and I did a little shopping to boot :D Yeah me practicality.
Sunday well that was Bowlplex once more as nephew wanted to go and always asks me just as he's leaving to go home, if I can take him :|... I won but I managed to lose a nice brown top I had in there somewhere, must phone and find out if it's been found yet.

I really should do my own 6 degrees of seperation

2008-07-06T22:58:00.003+01:00

Well it's been a bit of a slow week not much happening, really nothing...
Decorator hasn't been here all week but with good reason, poor guys mum died last Saturday so he took the week off, quite rightly so but he had already booked 2 weeks holiday as he should have been finished here by now but alas not.
We found someone else and they will be in Monday to do a bit of the work not sure how much they can do as there are still some walls that need skimmed which he don't do.
Work has been well not quiet as well everybody seems to want to get stuff done and we just can seem to get anything cleared away in order to get stuff done as paperwork etc still has to be done and cleared away and we had an engineer on holiday past 2 weeks.
Oh well back to the grindstone tomorrow I suppose...

Bear with me

2008-07-01T08:00:00.000+01:00

Bear with me having a little ISP trouble seems my ISP webside has gone tit's up :| and I pray it's just gone tit's up and Not LOST anything..

Update: seems to be fixed no idea what or why I'll have look into this might move the images else where...

My Week / 6 degrees

2008-06-28T20:11:00.005+01:00

Here is my real post for today..
So what's been really been happening since my last post on the house.
Well the Painter did come in last Saturday and start doing some work has been here all week, the hall, staircase and landing, the wood work's all been done apart from one piece which can't be done as it's needs to be put back up but that can't go on till the paper goes up of which some had to go back as it was damaged. The walls are all ready for papering now, the ceilings are as well. It has been a lot of work as there is quite a bit of woodwork and a lot of the wall needed to be "skimmed". I went out on Thursday (see my other post today). Oh and is it possible to fuck up more than to kiss a friend when they were feeling bad about themselves or was that a good thing, kissed her goodbye on Thursday as well ? All I can say is my heads screwed up now, hers too, although it was meant to be a simple kiss not how it turned out....
Goes to find shovel so he can bury himself somewhere.

Now moving swiftly on to the other part of the title "6 Degrees".
It is said that there are no more than 6 degrees of separation between person A & person B.
What I'd like you to do is try and get from this blog to your own blog using existing links from either blogrolls or direct post links and post how you did it
i.e Mine > Moogie's World > somewhere else > this one > that one > Your Own blog.
Should be fun I hope.

Chronicles of Narnia - Prince Caspian

2008-06-28T19:21:00.004+01:00

Went to see this Thursday night and by the time I came home I was too tired to actually post about it, yesterday - no let's just leave that where it is..
It follows on roughly 1300 years after the the children left Narnia where it appeared only a short time had passed in the real world. 1 Year on in their time and they are awaiting the train, however someone had been given hold of Susan's fabled horn, and told only to use it when he felt in grave danger.
So Prince Caspian not knowing any better when he meets his first Narnian blows the horn, of course on the sight of the horn the 2 Narnians he encounters know what it is and defend him (after knocking him out for his own safety), and Susan, Edward, Peter and Young Lucy get dragged back to Narnia and wonder where they are, it's as usual left to Lucy and Edward to figure it all out.
The arrive back at "Cair Paravel", the palace they once ruled over Narnia with and they soon set out to find out what's going on after getting their battle gear,
King Peter the Magnificent with his sword and shield, King Edward the Just with his sword, Queen Susan the Gentle with her bow and arrow and Queen Lucy the Valiant with her deadly little dagger and bottle of Fire Flower which can heal the gravest of wounds.
They do bump into Caspian and well Peter kinda kicks his but when they battle, they soon realise he's the one that called them and it's game on to get the status qua back as Prince Caspian should by all rights be dead, since his scheming Uncle Miraz now has a son and heir to the throne and thus can declare himself King.
They all return to the Castle Prince Caspian escaped from since well most of his Uncles forces are out looking for him and the others so it will be an easy task..
Which it's not, the prince does manage to rescue his tutor who gave him the horn in the 1st place, but it's at a loss.
Everyone is now wondering where Aslan is but we are reminded nothing happens the same way twice, The White Witch makes a brief appearance when prince Caspian is tricked by her old right hand dwarf and almost comes back but this time Edward stops her.
There is a good battle after this and it could be compared to the great battle from the second of the Lord of the Rings films and just like that one, Aslan roars in and wakens up the trees as it's time which then proceed to destroy some of the war machine. There is more than this but why spoil it all..

Over all this is a good film, death count is up but once again done without all the blood and gore. Oh and I will say I love "Reepicheep" he maybe a mouse but has a heart as big as Aslan himself oh yeah and him and his mates kick butt :)

Look around

2008-06-21T21:52:00.002+01:00

Okay dear reader(s), have a look at your profile, now taking mine as example
Location: "Fife" : "Scotland" : "United Kingdom" each is a link
click on each of them and tell me how many results are returned for each
Me I've just put Fife since it's a general area yours might be smaller
my figures to start are (including me)
Fife: 74
Scotland: 9,300
UK: 388,000
So a few people around about me blog, maybe get some more specific hits if I put other stuff in it's nice to know how many bloggers live in the same area as ya, you never know you might recognise someone..

Done.

2008-06-20T00:05:00.001+01:00

Well actually nothing is done in this house, apart from me..
I'm done, finished can really take very little more I just want this house back and my sisters although I do love them so dearly to kindly piss off.

I'd rather be...

2008-06-16T23:05:00.003+01:00

Well I'd rather be someplace else right now than here, although the painter is meant to start THURSDAY!!, mum arrives back on Sunday. Need I say anymore?
Sanity rating: - error - Oh great my sanity meter has broken again!
Yeah, I heard that from the back, It did work (at one point in the semi-recent past).
Now as to where that someplace could be is anyone's guess, bleh why do we need passports...
Oh work is doing good..
Oh and I got made a moderator on a forum I'm a member off, due to all the work I've done...
Speaking of which back to that - trying to get something to appear on another image, should be simple, but it's not working even if everything says it SHOULD!

And Then . . .

2008-06-10T00:53:00.004+01:00

And then there was a week where 0 happened...
Serious 0 happened last week, the decorator appears to be MIA somewhere else, didn't book him so can't confirm or deny he actually said he'd come but I have his number it will be getting called. Mum does know all this as she did ask and I don't lie to mum it's not needed. The "Twins" are buying the house they go see the bank et al tomorrow about it all, but from the looks of it they get the mortgage I pay the bloody thing as well as food etc.. fair hell no but I am totally and utterly past caring bloody more anymore...
They said it will be between this and that, and this will happen and if this happens we'll discuss it at the time,etc., etc. I went "fine" in a pissed off tone.. I was told ".. well you had the chance to buy it, we didn't think you wanted to so we're buying it.". I went "fine" to that too..
Oh and after 15 yrs then it's their "profit" time unless I've bought them out so to speak blah, blah, blah, blah, blah!
Oh they've figured out I'm pissed off at the painter not arriving but apprently he's been called 4 times and no return calls...
I'd put up some pics but I don't wanna depress you dear, dear reader any more.
Home, lol it's anything BUT.

Oh yeah and Magners Cider is very, very nice ice cold, It goes down even smoother...
I might need to restock it maybe..

And so it Ends, yet so it Begins I think!

2008-06-01T23:23:00.003+01:00

Ok time for that weekly update, I will dear reader try to post more, I know, I know I keep saying that!
Okay so what's begins and what's ended I here you say...
Well my dear colleague at work has decided she no longer wants to be my friend, her loss, more later this is the summary paragraph. As to the begins well the painter is meant to be starting this week but I just found out today he doesn't know all the paint that's to be used ARGH!

Ok, now on to the reasoning behind the ending, I tell you this it's petty to say the least, she picked the wrong night to annoy me is all I will say. Now last Monday we were meant to go out and see the new "Indian Jones" movie, which I saw today with my nephew and his friend, well I needed to spend quality time with him and it was either a movie or bowling, and believe you me bowling was out. Anyway back to point, I send my now ex-friend a text message saying I still had a bit to do in the house and I wanted it done for the painter coming in or words to that effect, it's not like she's not called off nights out before, see a few previous posts for that. Well I actually did nothing on Monday as after work I was totally shattered having worked quite a long day on the Sunday, all weekend was work. I had said the movie was "on hold" meaning we could reschedule for a later date, I was thinking of today for that but that was blown totally! Now I had said this to her, that I was sorry but I had too much to do and I actually ended up doing nothing. Friday it all comes out, I was tired and she comes out with something like you should try a weekend shift in here and well then goes on about how she was looking forward to seeing the movie on Monday and how it put a damper on her day (or something like that), I went "Now you know how I felt!" real close and to her face......
Of course this got the exact reaction I expected, yeah she's that predictable, I got
that it wasn't very nice and that's she's always given me a days notice if she wasn't going to be able to make it, well that's Bollocks for a start, I've seen me ready to head out the door when my phone's went for her to cancel!! I have went myself a few times as I've really wanted to see the film in question, anyway later on I check my phone and see 2 messages, 1st message read Bye, let's just keep this professional or something like that basically friendship over, her loss... 2nd message was a sorry for what she said earlier, I reply as it was the later message I think with okay, you mean the "Bye" message, I get back "No, not that and don't phone me at Home!", I went "okay, this will be the last text message I send to you", done and dusted. I mean as I was driving home, my phone goes it's my "colleague" I had put one of the phones in the office on divert to another basically got a few phones in the place some It's okay to divert others it's not advisable to divert, we got main office phone + 5 other phones for various things. Now it's simple enough to divert / remove divert it's a standard code followed by extn / external number , I had one phone diverted to the main phone and got a call on how to cancel it. I "blinked" at this, I went it's as the same code as you use to divert it after you've come back in the office, she went on about it would be hard later on when she went to lock up and had to divert the phone to the mobile we got, I shook my head at this, and NO she's not blonde, if she was she could be forgiven....

Now onto the "beginning" or is it, I have no actual idea if the painter is starting this week or not as like I said he don't know what all the paint colours he needs, Why oh WHY could someone not have told me this LAST week and this could have been all sorted out, Freaking Secret service would be less trouble. Oh that and well my sister who arranged it all hasn't actually heard from him a start date, can you believe that... If he don't freaking start tomorrow or Tuesday I think I go "nucking futs" at someone, and dear reader can ya blame me.

Okay now onto what else has been happening since my last post.
Well like I said the laminate flooring in the upstairs hall was "okay" but i felt it floated around a bit as well dear dad had fitted it under the skirting and some if not all of the walls have nothing really at the bottom to stop anything just going on, result the boards could move about. I took it all out and relaid it with the correct bits to go under the doors, although I had to modify them so the fitted right. That's almost done as I did that yesterday and today mainly all the boards had to be cut a slow task as some had cut outs to go around the woodwork / pipework, just need to trim a few more boards and I'm done it will be all tight and won't move well it will at the stairs but I need speak to the carpet fitter and see what he's doing so I can get the right part for there. Kitchen is done, I've not checked a few of the windows as I think they are all sanded enough to be painted, will find out soon enough, well maybe :P. I do know that the 2 bedrooms are fine as is the living room.
I did take Monday off and who can blame me I worked non-stop last weekend, just like I did this weekend I stopped last night at 11pm this was from about 10am, did some shopping, put washing on, did some of the floor, dumped all the bags of wall paper I had kicking about, lost count of the number of these, a lot is all I can say, back to the floor, ate, floor till 11pm - it was dark and I was screwing up, I've managed to cover up the few screw ups - not really my fault just seems strange I measured it very accurately and was too short sometimes :(. Well Wednesday was a fun morning, we'd arranged an uplift of stuff that was going out and well no-one had told me it needed to go out on Tuesday night so it had to go out Wednesday morning, before breakfast had been eaten as well and before "Tea" had even touched my lips! Well we also had the council in to replace the kitchen ceiling as water had leaked through it and it had black mold on it not nice at all! Nice new ceiling now. Finished the Kitchen between Thursday and Friday nights. I'm taking the week off as I don't think I need to do anything next week at home.
Oh and I persuaded mum to stay away another week, "brownie" points to me..
Toddles

Sunday Update

2008-05-25T22:25:00.003+01:00

Remember how I said all that needed doing was the kitchen after I'd finished the spare room erm well I found out the spare room ceiling was being redone as well as the paint / paper was cracking so off it came slowly got most of it yesterday. The top landing ceiling was to come off as well, this basically leads down the stairs now thankful (or rather unthankfully there was a "false ceiling" put in at some point so as to make it easier to paper the ceiling it's either that or you have a piece of ceiling which is about 12 ft high to try and get to and paper not easy at all, now thing was the ceiling looked loose or rather one part did as you could move it with you hand like it just needed renailed but of course had to check behind it to find where to put the nail and see........
Well erm at some point many, many years ago the council put insulation in the attic, not the standard yellow coloured "glass wool" insulation you see, this was what looks like recycled shreaded paper - great insulator / noise killer, anyway at some point or other, before / after someone must have put their foot through the ceiling right near the top of the false ceiling (perhaps the reason it was done), anyway of course you can imagine what's happened quite a quantity of this paper stuff had fallen in. We took it off to have a look end well, 4 bags + a load in the bin later, we had cleared it away, of course dust everywhere because it was that fine.
So today I spent doing a little bit of ironing either that or no shirt, trousers for work tomorrow, finishing off the ceiling in the spare room, sweeping all that into a black bag. Doing the same to the top landing ceiling so those are all done.
Now all that is left is the kitchen and all I now need to do is check all the windows are sanded down sufficiently to paint it. Oh yeah and I noticed the laminate flooring upstairs needs looked at as some of it has moved - need to nail it down and get the right bits for doorways so that it all looks nice since it just had metal strips down from when there was carpet everywhere and not carpet one side laminate the other.

This is the week that was..

2008-05-23T23:49:00.004+01:00

Okay update time, I suppose.
A zen like peace is now in session, well I had to turn the music down it is late :p.
Mother arrived safe and well down south and has been relaxing all week, mainly sleeping but hey she needed it, she's off to another cousin's tomorrow for a week then to my aunt's for a week and we'll see what happens from there. Oh yeah my cousin after she called on the thursday phoned my sister and erm had a go (well she's allowed, mum is her godmother after all:D), with one of my other cousins helping out, it isn't a good idea to upset that cousin, I was glad I was sitting down when I was told this as I was laughing so hard, she did say mum looks a lot better now gone is the "someone's given me a black eye" look so result :). I cried at that but don't tell anyone..

My week has been interesting.
Saturday - took out and put back the fire surround thing once I had taken away all the bits of wallpaper from behind - I then proceeded to clear the whole wall with help of a mate.. Sisters turned up 1 after the other sort of. "Thinking out loud" in the kitchen as to how to re-arrange it, I said "no" often, till they gave in. It might not seem functional but I like it the way it is and I can work in it even if those 2 can't, oh and they did try and throw stuff out that "wasn't any use" (to them). It was put back and the place re-arranged so I can work it.
Sunday did the shopping and sanded down mum's bedroom - which I've discovered needs looked at as it's not working 100% it sticks not good.
Monday - back at work and thus I couldn't be bothered doing anything so just chilled.
Tuesday - busy (ish) at work so again chilled out I just think I needed the "space" even if mate did come round.
Wednesday - Work and Invaded as older sister did say she'd be down I said just do the bottom hall as it's not much and that will do. Other sister decides to come down afterwards and work clearing the paper off the stairs - I finished it AND tidied up..
Thursday - Work and I finished the top hall off as well as the bit not done on the stairs, thank god the ceiling is being re-papered as half of it has come off (it's bleeding woodchip - whoever invented that paper needs shot it's cheap, nasty and a swine to remove).
Friday - Work, yeah the WEEKEND! did some work on the spare room to clear it and did about 30% of the room will do the rest tomorrow and hit the kitchen on sunday as that is all that is left really.
Next week - double check it's all been done, touch up sanding etc..
Result I think..
O

I don't know what's more stressful right now work or home..

2008-05-15T20:17:00.004+01:00

Right now I don't honestly know what's more stressful...
A) Work - trying to figure out where each invoice I have listed in the system is and what it pertains to as well all I have is Invoice number,a name as the descriptor and create date, all is fine and well but how am I supposed to tell the invoice for a call out charge, a repair of a system, the replacement of an alarm or the general annual maintenance internal invoices when the file name is just the name who it's went to!
ARGH, I mean I've got to try and figure out who's paid for their maintenance this year and thus need to have their alarm service but I'm STRUGGLING to understand the electronic filing system that's been employed as nothing adds up... The JOYS!
or
B) Home - the walls are bare, the floors are bare, decorator coming in 2 weeks, walls look smooth enough to me to paper onto for me oh that and I'm going to have to try and figure out how the FUCK I'm going to fix a light in the bathroom that's been knocked out due to BITCH 1 being over zealous when she was taking the paper off the ceiling - ARGH! It's so bad , I'm booking mother on a flight down south to visit my cousin for a while, then my aunts etc. Still don't know when she wants to go as she needs to sort a few things out 1st. I am also at the end of my tether any more and I'm just gonna blow and things will get freaking messy.
Sisters who the FUNK would have them, mine I wouldn't give them to my worst enemy, yeah they are that bad!
Where did I put the prozac...

Update time

2008-05-11T01:22:00.002+01:00

Okay so what has happened since my last actual post (the 2 below they are side notes).
Well let me see, in no particular datal order.
I've been to the Dental Place - they went to try and fix the tooth I said was bugging me and they can't fix it really it will have to come out or it will give me more grief. So I've to book another appointment and get an impression taken so that I can have that tooth and a few others that are now missing (darn sweet tooth of mine, well that and forgetting to brush sometimes).
So yeah basically I'm gonna end up with a few teeth that ain't my own - lovely.
Remember the house, well there is defiantly no wallpaper left or carpets they have all gone. There was a wardrobe that I was going to take to pieces and bring down but I never got that chance, FUCKING impatient BITCHES sorry sisters of mine decided not to wait even although the arranged collection date was oh a week away, all the stuff to be picked up was picked up last Wednesday, they needed it out so out it came but it would fit around the corner of the stairs so they basically destroyed the handrail, spindles and baseplace on one side of the stairs, so they could get this thing out, it went out in bits. Now I'm having to replace that as well, was hoping not to just sand it down so it could be painted but NO!!! I think you can imagine the sort of anger level I hit at when I saw it.
Oh and I get this bullshit about "picking sides" again, when will those 2 learn I've picked already but they are too stupid to notice.
On another note, the new carpets are picked and mum went back to the place she's getting her new suite from and saw a few items she like that were exactly as she wanted..

Oh yeah speaking of things mum likes, I was asked to go pick some stuff up on the way home one day from the local Argos, I just managed to fit it in the car, it was bit tight shall we say. I had the next day off due to car getting a new sump fitted, well £ 194 later it was done..
Anyway I'm at home and the rest of the Argos order arrives and I'm like What the freaking hell is all this doing here, oh that and mum's not pleased either.
They had ordered a new dinner service (we hated the cups), new kettle n toaster set - we can never get a toast that toasts just right it's either black/deep brown or white instead of the golden colour we like - don't need either of them. Bread bin - we got one of them and it's useable, also to match it tea, coffee & sugar containers - both went back no need for them. Black Marble place mats - I was like erm "NO" - sent back as mum didn't like at all. New Cutlery to go with it all - looked shit. This was all put up the stairs out the way, it was then brought back down put in the sitting room by my older sister, younger one had to go pick up le brat I mean the nephew, she then Stormed out - toys out the pram style, bank card was handed back with words like "there so you can accuse me of stealing your money!", done in a not very nice way really. It was all done to fact that all the stuff was bought but no receipts were ever given to my mum so she could see how much she was spending, I now have all of them, the stuff went back to Argos and the money is back in the account.
I've got around to sanding down the woodwork that needs doing so that it can be painted and I've sourced a new hand rail, base rail, spindles - I just need to get them from the shop home, they won't fit in car, 2.4m long no way, going to have to work that one out.
The decorator will be here at the end of the month.
Oh the weather this week wasn't too bad - pity all the good stuff happened while I was stuck in the office... was around low 70's all week, weekend it rained.
Work however is good.

Gordon signing off.

Jump for Life...

2008-05-01T20:29:00.003+01:00

Hey head over to Chez Moogie say hi and help raise some cash for the AHA and help Meelie on her way to her target :)..

Echoes in the dark

2008-04-26T18:17:00.002+01:00

I picked up a big notebook I'd not used in a while and stumbled across this, written a few years ago now but true.
For I am forever balancing the light and the dark.

Echoes in the dark

Silent voices echo in my mind,
Echoing in the spaces between heartbeats,
Sometimes saying something, often saying nothing,
Different voices, echoes of joy, fear and lonelyness.
People all around, yet still alone,
Words been spoken without meaning,
Words been spoken without thought,
Words hurting like dagger wounds,
Hurting like ice to the soul
Fragmented the soul becomes,
Broken,yet safe and alive.
One tiny hope, a ray of light,
A light to lead the way,
But to where to be lead to and for what?
A voice cries out in the darkness,
Alone, you race ahead, hoping to save,
You come across the Abyss,
It's so dark, deep and yet soothing.
That voice again, this time telling you something,
You strain to hear, almost falling into sweet oblivion.
It's at that point you realise, it's yourself,
A soul pleading, don't give in be strong.
So here I walk the line,
The line between darkness and the light,
The eternal edge of the blade.

Voices still echo,
Echo in the night, in the space between dreams.
It's a battle, never won, never lost.
An eternal battle between the light and the dark.
In the shadows I must remain, ever twilight.
Looking into the abyss and laughing, knowing enough
Knowing enough to know,the abyss shall never claim me
And so the battle goes on...

(c)Me 2005

The ups, the downs and the downright strange aka My Week

2008-04-25T18:51:00.003+01:00

It's been a while I know, I should post more often but I don't.
So what's been going on since my last post well the house is looking like it's been hit by high winds, there is paper missing everywhere, few rooms / areas have escaped the carnage that is my 2 sisters the seem hellbent on redoing the house how they want it, my mom god bless her is having none of it, she is saying no when it matters :). The kitchen ceiling is a mess at least one panel of plasterboard will need replacing if not 2. The spare room is now just that it looks sparce as well erm the carpet has been lifted, some furniture removed I think even the bed is gone although not sure on that one I'd have to look again and I'm not going to do that just yet. My room is escaping for the simple reason I said my room is fine, leave well alone! (or else) the or else being that well let's just say I can be what can only be termed "a right ass" and I could also change the locks, evil ME...
Anyway enough about the house and on to the rest of my week.
Last Saturaday I was invited out to Dundee to a mates birthday celebratory pub type crawl, not a proper pub crawl just we seem to hit a few of them is all..
It started off so well, The first one was a "Dundee FC" pub and Queen of the South had just beat them that afternoon and I went Oh yeah Queen of the South they did well against Aberdeen in the Cup.... my mate Dazz goes "this is a Dundee pub and they just got beaten by Queen of the South", I went "okay, new pub time :D"..
We then hit the balcony bar which was a nice little place quiet just the way I like it, of course we seemed to managed to have the one guy who was drunk already wander to our table, I mean by wander he had to get up some stairs and round the corner minding to duck as there is a beam about 6ft of the floor just around the corner, I love been short :D. We then went to "Starz" yeah with a Z everything that should have ended in an S ends in a Z in this place, it was okay the music was just about bareable then on comes this "muzak" and the DJ signing over it and stuff so we erm left and went to Dazz's "Local" which turned out to be a very, very fine Irish Pub with a brilliant Guitarist / Singer who well let's just say he's not very PC with the songs. Was ace, oh and through all this I only drank cola as I was driving home, next time I'm arranging for a bed someplace so I can drink.. That was the "up"
The "down" well that was pretty much "work" Monday to Wednesday.
Monday the boss and the "other" boss was in, stuff came in, I forgot to "Fax" copies to the other office as I thought copies had been taken - No.
Should have figured this out and faxed them Tuesday. Wednesday was a total downer - faxed the stuff only after I got asked if anything had come in.... :| and did that technically I wasn't meant and "broke" it or appeared to break it...
Thursday was strange the "broke" thing unbroke but then discovered other stuff that was broke late on, much of strange day - I love re-writing procedures so they all make sense and are all in the same layout not 20 different ones IN CAPS, bold, non-bold etc.. So I'm still freaking copy/pasting them into one document god bless "paste as unformatted text" which saves me all the hassle well a little - I still gotta reformat stuff like page titles and that.
Other Strange things this week include mum goes to new this and that and not actually bothering about the cost of it.
Oh and one last thing - I booked my checkup appointment at the local "Dental Access Place" - I can't find a dentist (well not really looked hard as well erm yeah that kinda thing) and now one of my other teeth is starting to give grief ARGH!

And then there was...

2008-04-17T07:07:00.002+01:00

Well the service on my car didn't all get done at once due to it needing a new part and the garage don't keep them in stock, that and it will take more that a Saturday morning to fix it, it's going to have to go in during the week :-S the joy of that, the more I think about it the more I like the idea of just taking that day off work saves the hassle of trying to get the car into the garage, then into work on time or as close to, we shall just have to see, oh and it will cost me another £170 to get this done.

Zen...

2008-04-14T23:40:00.003+01:00

So what's happening at Chez Gopher, well let me tell ya my sisters are taking over or it just seems that way...
My Aunt's been up for 2 weeks so bliss the minimalistic amount of cooking not that it actually bothers me, scrolls back to see what he wrote last time...........
I know it wasn't that long ago but it just seems it and the last post was kind of "out there random off the wall I'm pissed and blowing off steam" type of post.
Now things appear to be semiantly stabalist, hey the might not be spelled correctly or even exist but hey that's just a minor point and I'm allow them.
Now works be flipped, turned upside down or it just seems that way..
Well let's just say there is a new rota being put in place due to someone not doing as asked and getting what was coming to them, now where that left me I wasn't sure but I am at least sure now.. Dayshift mainly, 9-5 weekdays not the 8-4 could argue same-o-same but it's NOT. I answer the phones, take messages, transfer when needed, collect the mail and dump it into a tray to be collected I don't even need to open it :D, do the admin work, handle the deliveries and returns (it will be done right from now).. Typing up / modifying of work.
Meanwhile back at the ranch......
There are plans afoot to redecorate pretty much the WHOLE house, my room is mine so "Hands the hell off", the rest you can do with as ya like, it's a pity all the woodwork has a dark stain on it, I think it would look nice lighter but no painted it shall be, it does make sense just seems a LOT of money is being spent very quickly but I'm staying the HELL out I like life and I wanna keep breathing.

On a lighter note mum and I went out shopping yesterday well she was bored and wanted to go someplace and the shopping needed done afterwards we went to a local garden centre for lunch. It ended up an expensive weekend why because apart for shopping and lunch, my beloved car was due it's Annual service I threw some money at it and it's not done yet as still waiting on a price for a part.

Can I just say go visit Laura say hi, oh and wander over to Barb's and sit a spell..

What do I do now?

2008-04-05T00:20:00.002+01:00

Okay I'm firmly at a loss here....
I pretty much live my own life even although I stay in my mum's house, I wake up, go to work, come home, eat dinner, and then sit at the PC and then sleep..
I do talk to her while I'm waiting on dinner getting ready and maybe eating it and a little in the morning but other than that not much...
Thing is of late, well ever since the "op" she had to remove the bruised blood on the inside of her head that screwed her speech up a bit and stuff. She's not been able to handle alcohol at all..
Now I don't know if it's just not being able to handle it or it's a combination of the alcohol and something she's been given to take at night but I've found her a few times on the floor, pissed as a fart and unable really to apparently get up.
Now I have said to her if she had a drink and is in bed and wants something to eat to just come as me and I'll go do it - no...
She tries to make something and fails always seems to have a banana in her had as well
strange that.. I mean she's fallen downstairs - no damage really she's been fine I checked her over, fallen out her seat in the sitting room straight forward as well knocking stuff over never breaking it as well..
Now we all know that "alchol" solves nothing, the thing is she's never been able to really talk to me and vice versa so starting now would be really hard.
It pains me to see her like that and no way can I move her at all, she has to do that herself and does eventually. I just cover her up with a blanket and make sure she's okay as best I can...
Does my head in like but I can't stop her drinking totally - even although she's just said after my aunt goes home "no more alcohol in here" not what I asked her to do - I just said cut down a little or don't take your tablets till your in bed and got something eat....
ARGH as all Mothers this FREAKING STUBBORN???

Thank You

2008-04-01T22:53:00.003+01:00

I'd like to thank 3 lovely ladies on behave of my dear sweet mum, your gift arrived today and it's lovely, it will be cared for tenderly and will hopefully bring joy for at least a few months / years depends on how long it take for the green fingers to wear off..

So To Laura, Barb and Melonie - Thank You

** Hugs you all tight **

The ending of a chapter...

2008-03-28T19:01:00.002Z

Well that's it over and done with, dad's in heaven now. The service was lovely minister did us proud, reminding us of how he was, not how he was at the end. So many faces I haven't seen in years were there but ask me who was and I could tell you all I can tell you is maybe just about who came to the buffet we had afterwards I think a few came to the service but then left, possibly out the other door I don't know. I was fine all through the service even when the closed the curtain, it was a cremation you see. I was holding it together real well then they sang the "Old rugged cross" I think I got about 2 words out and that was it, how I stayed upright I don't know only way I can think was God was holding me up, my mum couldn't sing it either we just stood holding on to each other...
So this is the end of the chapters of my life that feature my dad and on to chapters new where he'll still feature but just as a shadow..

Dad, thank you for giving me life, and the never ending curiousity for how things worked as it helped me so much and it defines who I do things I take a problem pull it apart see how it works or doesn't put it back together again as a solution, that and many other things besides..

My Dad 4/3/33 to 22/3/08 - Rest in Peace

2008-03-22T14:02:00.006Z

Well it's finally over I think I knew that last night as I wrote the post, I knew he didn't have long, he died this morning at around 3am, I think I'm still not sure, he went peacefully in his sleep at least that's something.
The funeral is this Friday, I'm leaving all that to my sisters it will take all I have to keep plodding on, being strong for those who need it and I'm still going in to work on Monday as by then I'll need "space" and something resembling normality..
So long dad, it's been being fun and interesting knowing you, somethings you taught me I didn't realise you had done, thanks for that.

.......

2008-03-21T20:45:00.003Z

. ... .. .. ........
Error data missing, restore from backup(y/n)?y
Error backup not found / corrupted, attempting to repair / find..
Unable to find / repair data, giving up!
Fatal error in Life.sys, reload..
Yeah uhuh that's just about maybe roundabout where I am right now..
I went into see Dad last night and I felt that I may as well not have been there as I got fuck all reaction to me talking to him, holding his hand etc trying to get something out nothing.. I said as much to my mum and she kinda agreed, I said to my oldest sister via text message in reply to a message she'd sent asking could I go in certain nights, I tried to put it in a nice way but I fucking guess they can't freaking read correctly as well about 10 minutes later phone goes it my OTHER sister DEMANDING to know what's going on... I explain and say you can tell her that too, no I'm sick of being the messenger, I went okay I'll tell her myself which I did.....
Scroll forward 12hrs - text message dad had an okay night, 1st time I've gotten one of those! 2 hrs later I'm out the office, phone goes "were wanted at the hospital right away", I said I'm not in the office I'll be there as soon as I can. I get there was there for 7 hrs, doing basically nothing, dad was half asleep mouth open etc.. THey said this could go on for days so WHAT BRILLIANT plan did my sister come up with we'll have one of us be there i.e 24hrs :| NOT FUCKING HAPPY BUNNY!!!!!!
I NEED MY GOD DAMN SLEEP STILL but do they actually CARE not a fucking JOT!!!!!! Oh well roll on 6am when I have to get up, waken up have something to eat, grab the paper and be in for 7am so I can take over.. I mean they asked me and they were bound to see I was tired I went "yeah" and I've been yawning as well guess they feel GUILTY in some way, me I'm at peace with myself and my dad, they AIN'T but I am going to be nice and not say they should be able to work that out themselves..
I think my mum thinks she's going with me, I don't remember being told she was to come.

It's Friday and I'm again not out anywhere....

2008-03-15T00:00:00.000Z

I was meant to be going to see "Vantage Point" but my friend called off not at the last minute but 1st thing this morning when she came into the office. Now her excuse, she didn't think she had enough time to get enough sleep as she's got an appointment with the optition to see if she's suitable for laser eye surgery so she don't need to wear glasses anymore. Due to what they will do in the eye exam she can't drive in as her vision might end up a bit blurry for the rest of the day it's a morning appointment but she said she'd need to get up at like before 8 to get from her house to where the appointment is in time and she needs her beauty sleep...
The film was due to start at 8:50pm, it's 2hrs or there about call it 2 1/2 once you add trailers - that would be 11:20pm take her maybe 40 minutes to get home so home around midnight - she needs her 8 hrs! so that's out, We are going to see "The Spiderwick Chronicles" and "Vantage Point" on Sunday - If I can get away with it... very few things will stop me, not even the "guilt card" of looking after nephew will work anymore, although I don't think my sister realizes this yet, she will however, how soon is another matter...
Oh my dad is okay, he's was a little sleepy yesterday when I was in but he had had a lot of visitors in yesterday. Today of course is a different matter they've adjusted his meds and it's helping although he's a little bit disorentated and sleepy which is too be expected of course did he not try and go to the bathroom and misjudged getting out of bed, well rather fell out of bed and give himself a few bruise but he's fine.
More tomorrow night after I visit him.
Oh and speaking of sleep I think I'll go grab some given it's MIDNIGHT.

Situation: Vacent!

2008-03-12T18:18:00.000Z

This is an automated message, the owner of this blog is currently unavailable....
NO not really, but well it kinda does sum up roughly, approximately where I am at present.
That place is somewhere, at least I'm sleeping a bit better (without pharmaceutical help). My dad was transfered to a hospice within the local hospital to give mum some much needed "space" my dad is a pain in the ass normally but now he is more so, he went in on Monday morning. We had to call the doctor in on Sunday,he was given an injection of some description I wasn't there but we had to get a neighbour in to carry him to bed as he really couldn't walk. I was actually able to get a fair amount of sleep last night so it's helping me as well. Mum is doing better so it's helping the only thing is I'll have to make sure she really limits any drinking she does late at night as well between the pills she has been given and the alcohol she ends up cooking stuff and then the next day not realising she done it, she doesn't burn anything and it tidy enough so she's aware at the time.
Oh and this is just a thanks to all of you who are taking time even if just a moment to think of my family, me I'll be fine, just pray for my parents.
On a lighter and brighter note it appears that the bone headed one aka my sister is talking to my mum again they had a long conversation the other day and it seemed to work.

I guess it's meant to be

2008-03-09T01:00:00.001Z

Okay now this is a strange one, anytime I've went to be like served some place I seem to get someone called Laura, no seriously i do. I went into the bank at the end of last month to put in my pay check who served me some lovely young woman called "Laura", and again today in McDonalds I was served by a Laura, actually it didn't matter what queue I took I would have been served by a Laura yeah they had 2 on the tills - very bizarre, I think it's God's way of telling me something and yeah I hear ya I get the message.
So I guess I'm going to have serious look into getting my passport and seeing how much it will cost and what I need etc.
I know this post seems a little random but that is me of late random, more so due to slight lack of sleep over the past week, oh and my sudden liking for Morgan's Spiced and coke,ice optional. The lack of sleep thing I'm still trying to figure out falling asleep around oh 12:30am dispite going to bed early enough like 11pm, waking up around 4:30am then again at like 5:50 then getting up at 6:30 to get ready to head out the door..
I did it again this morning only it was 6:30 and not 4 yet I did need to be up at 7:30 so I could go look after nephew who my sister seems to think I've abandoned, I haven't I just have to fit work, sleep, eating, cooking and the other stuff I have to do + "ME" time, so something has to give.
I mean let me see he had "canoing" with his scout group today, I got to know yesterday but only after I sent a text asking if the Football was still on or not as he had a match supposed to be today which got canceled due to erm a little gallon or 50 of rain. I did really stop all day, drank tea and maybe sat down for 5 minutes while waiting to get going but that was it really. After I got back from looking after "the brat", I cooked dinner and then went shopping, was told "if you get the same thing every week why don't ya order it online", well I'm sorry I'm one for actually going round and visually remembering what I need besides it's "my space".
So all in all from 7:30am to around 7:30pm I didn't stop..
It's now 1am, I'm just about ready to "crash"..
Oh and on another note, my dad isn't very well he's picked up a chest infection and well between that and the stuff he's taking he's erm "seeing things", so not good also because he's not really moving his bony ass his feet are starting to swell up :|, I'll see what I can't do about that, probably not a lot but we'll see.
Oh and my sister are trying to buy the house, and I can either go in or not if not I pay them "rent"!!!! I may as well pay the freaking morgage myself as they probably cripple me money wise, fuck 'em both - they say they aren't being evil, yeah RIGHT!

Catchy song

2008-03-06T23:34:00.004Z

I heard this song on the radio the other day and it was instantly catchy,
I've found the video for it on You tube, it's seems similar to the UK version one but just the music is slightly different.

and no, I've no idea why this video is so erm "off the wall".

A Poem...

2008-03-05T23:09:00.004Z

Well I say a Poem, it's more a collection of words that are in lines..

Assassin

I come from the shadows,
And to the shadows I return
Death come swiftly on metallic wings.

I am the taker of life,
Death in an instant or,
Death in what seems like an eternity.

Slow death, quick death,
The choice isn't yours, it is mine,
Mine alone, for I am the assassin.

Poisons to slow you down,
Poisons to kill you faster,
Poisons to cloud your mind.

From the shadows I shall step,
You shall know me, for how briefly,
Only I know that.

For who am I? I am the assassin
Lightning quick, and twice deadly,
You had better pray I am on your side.

I am the assassin,
remember me well,
Death come swiftly from blades of steel.

(c)2008.
Yeah I've been playing my Orc Rogue too much again...

Happy Birthday Dad

2008-03-04T07:07:00.002Z

Well today is Dad's birthday, probably his last but you never know, he has this darn stubborn streak a mile wide..
what can I say 75 today, About all I can say really :) Well that and I better scoot off to work...

... The End seems near, maybe / other stuff...

2008-03-01T09:59:00.002Z

Well the title says it all really, the end is coming, how soon I don't know but right now it's not a pretty sight, I mean there wasn't much to my dad as it was but now there is even less. My Aunt has been up all week which has helped out a lot, she's managed to have a calming effect on mum which has helped greatly although she has a few times tested my patience. My Aunt is away home went home the same way she came by bus which of course I drove her to catch, there was no way I'd have not taken her :). So it's back to cooking I suppose :P. Yeah dad is doing okay just about holding it together, he sometimes sleeps downstairs in his nice reclining chair - well sometimes being a lot of the time now as I we can fully cover him up and put the chair almost flat so he's comfortable enough and warm enough.

What else have I been doing this week well let me see:
Me and the Boss both got pissy at a PCB design program that basically worked but didn't print on the printer he had - it worked before so we knew it should work again, yet the printer printed from other programs so it was weird - turns out it was the printer as he plugged in an older model and ..... PCB prints.
Got a few alarms sorted out. I'm sure there was more but right now mind it's blank.

I was able to get out last night to see a movie but due to the weather we've been having my friend decided it would probably be best to stay at home as it was freaking windy over her way - not nice really. I went to see "Jumper" good film, it did leave it open for a "Jumper 2" - of course it had the obvious twist in it but I'm not going to say anymore other than if you liked matrix n Bourne then you might like this. I also saw a few trailers for other films which I might just go and see too.

"May Peace walk beside you and in your heart forever."

There are people out there that just by being there are helping keep me sane and strong. Just remember true friends are there always, you can lean on them for support, so Barb if ya think you don't got the strength to carry on, lean on me, lean on Laura.

Okay.....

2008-02-24T21:15:00.002Z

I think there is a tiny piece of tooth left in my gum and it's fricking annoying me, you know that. If I thought I could get the sucker out I would but it seems firmly attached and well like it a very high annoyance level whenever I accidently touch it.
As for the experimenting well it didn't happen I just couldn't be bother at all so I settle for a large Pina Colada instead, which worked a treat..
Now I just have to put up with the slight gnawing pain I get it's very slight and this freaking cold I think I've gotten thrown back at me.
Oh and I find out that my dear dad don't like the ham I got for sunday dinner :| and he hasn't liked ham for a while, why oh freaking WHY could someone not have TOLD me that oh wait it's coming to me know Im supposed to be a MIND READER, roll on tomorrow so I can get back to work and some sanity, I don't know mother has honed the habit of "hovering" and I'm sorry its getting to me now, she don't even realize she's doing it either so can't see why I'm getting all tense!

It's a little better now..

2008-02-21T21:02:00.003Z

Well it's a little better now the thing still annoys slightly but I was told it would for the next few days as for Jack n Capt. M. well I do like 'em both shame I can't think of a way to combo them in a glass with something else - 1 drink and you probably wouldn't care much about anything :P that reminds me of a time I thought hmm time to finish off the last of this Czechoslovakia plum brandy I had, how did I get that a good friend of mine used to go out with a girl from the country - she was a little crazy to say the least, anyway he brought back some "shop" stuff and some "Home made" stuff, the shop stuff was tame, the home made stuff hmm nice, just don't burp afterwards. Anyway back on topic, I did have some "WKD Blue" - it's basically a premixed vodak based drink - tastes bubblegum / raspberryish I just felt like I needed a change so I went to a mate who was erm "helping me out" in drinking 'em - let's erm mix these too shall we.. Well you can mix WKD aka WicKeD with port to make what is called around here as "Cheeky Vimto" because it would have the colour of vimto but a major kick. Anyway this had a kick a major one - we had enough for one glass each - believe me that was enough... I really didn't care much after that.
*hic*
I do like experimenting but not with too many different drinks in a night that tends to end up BAD...

Toothache

2008-02-20T16:42:00.002Z

Ouch, ouch, hmm concentration level 0 - well that was last night, I did manage to sleep how I don't now - I think I can thank 400mg Ibuprofen for that numbed it enough.
I phoned my dentist or the one I thought I was still registered at - well if the don't deregister you after so long :( I mean I've not seen a doc in god know but I know I can go and see him if I need to.
So got another number to phone and I got an emergency appointment this afternoon for them to have a look, it's a "student place", the dentist I got looked like the boss dude, he knew what he was doing, nice enough guy.. He had a look said well there are 2 options either I can remove the filling and kill the root but there really isn't much tooth left to work with and the tooth behind had broken anyway or he could remove them both which is what I said to do. So right now I'm sitting here with half my face de-numbing and the pain starting to kick in a little. Salt water mouthwash for me tonight.
Now this is what I get for years of forgetting to brush my teeth, after the fillings I knew they were screwed anyway.

Shopping.....

2008-02-16T20:16:00.002Z

Why, oh why is it when you go shopping you always end up getting things you need yet you get other things that you didn't realize you needed or are on offer and when you get to the checkout with your shopping trolley, even if it is like the smallest one they have, you've some how spent a small freaking fortune.. I mean this wasn't for like a month, this was for like a weekly shop, I swear it gets more expensive every week.
I mean I then did forget a few things, darn it if I didn't bump into my sister, her friend, the nephew and the friends 1yr old.. that interrupted my train of thought.
Oh and some Energy Saving Bulbs ain't worth it....

Valentine's Day

2008-02-14T00:00:00.001Z

It's that time of year again. What you mean you didn't know, you been living in a cave for the past month. If you've forgotten it might not be too late you know might just be able to get something.
Now it's all lovey dovey today is it not, it's the day your suppose to tell someone you really care about deeply that maybe it's more than care deeply you know maybe whisper those 3 words that although sound really easy to say "I" simple enough, "love" doable I mean you could be saying I love Pizza, "you" is easy too but put all three together and it becomes something exponentially greater than the sum on it's parts, it's a powerful statement.
So maybe today just read this and then go snuggle up to that special someone if you can do something you wouldn't normally do today for your partner, you don't need to go all expensive, sometimes it's just the thought that's gone into whatever you give that counts truely. If you can't be with that special someone a call, an e-mail with a pic maybe or a video clip or just something. You never know you just might make someone's day.

Wait I hear you cry what If I like someone but they don't know how to do I do that, cards, either real or e-cards (if you got their e-mail address), some places do allow anon maybe, even if you think they suspect you like them a little more than just a friend. You just never know they maybe like you a lot too but are afraid to admit it.
You never know who you might find, you just might find the one person in all the world that you just connect with at so many different levels, soul mate why because they can just somehow touch you and touch your soul even without actually physically touching you, it's one of those things that is so hard to explain you just know when it happens. It's the kind of person who you just need to think about and you feel relaxed or you talk to them and your trouble seem to melt away. It is the most surreal, superb and incredibly strange feeling or set of feelings you'll ever have.
I'm kinda feeling that way right now as I write this, I am thinking of one person, they know who they are, as do a few others that read here, okay probably most of my readship truth be told but I'm a private kinda guy.

So Sweetie

Happy Valentines Day.

P.S. Yes people this is a kinda fudged post but hey it's actually hard to write this you know.

It's Friday!

2008-02-08T18:34:00.000Z

Yeah I made it to the end of the week alive, although only just I do feel positively crap to put none to fine a point on it, The boss is to blame as he gave this freaking wonderful stinking head / chest / any space inbetween type cold I have. My head only pounds now and then it's my sinuses are all stuffed up and no matter what I do I cant unstuff 'em I mean I can breathe clearly through nose just still feel it right between the eyes. I'm drinking fluids galore to try and keep throat moist and I'm eating strepsils to keep it numb enough. It's weird thought my head only really annoys me 1st thing in the morning when I hit work, could be the atmosphere in there, someone seems to like it WARM, turns up the heating, this is dispite the fact the room has enough monitors in it to keep it warm!
Oh and the bosses little chat never happened he couldn't remember what he wanted to talk to me about so it can't have been that important :D. Now to the weekend and the cooking, shopping and freaking Ironing to do, certain things I HATE ironing and I've got a few of them to do, i.e anything bigger than a large towel and I hate it basically so bedding is out too hard to try and keep flat! Right off to try and get something to burn to DVD and then maybe a destressing watching of said item.

*cough**splutter*

2008-02-04T20:27:00.000Z

Kraznox, yeah I know it's not a real word, just some made up word from Ant Bully but it pretty much sums up how I feel. I have a cold, a nasty one that's got me from head to chest and all areas in between. I've tried lemsip, it helps a little but does NOTHING for me. So I'm on the neurofen and strepsils and LOADS of tissues for my nose.. I mean it so bad I can't even be bothered to play World of Warcraft, just sit and watch a DVD with some popcorn - reminds me must test out pop corn I got ;). I managed today to screw the other works van well not really just that the link between gear stick and gearbox came loose thankfully wasn't doing any speed just turning van, oh that and a Woman today pulled out basically in front of me in her car didn't look was like "NO!!!"
Boss was to discuss a few things tomorrow not sure what and I get a feeling I may not like it, More later.
Right now to just pick a DVD and put that popcorn on.

Crash goes my perfect driving record...

2008-02-01T18:06:00.000Z

Well I guess it had to happen at some point, you know the inevitable automobile accident. I had mine yesterday, in the works van thankfully - well in a way anyway. I was driving back to HQ from a new office in the van, it was snowing, road turning getting slippery, I was driving a road I drive everyday practically as it's a way from work to home as well. I come up to a bend see 2 cars stuck on the bend hazards lights on, I stop to let traffic coming down the road passed, I look think yeah it's clear to proceed, go to drive off no grip, by the time I had grip car was coming the other way, smack I was able to stop I don't think the other car had any grip what-so-ever, that and they'd only just got the car why they were driving that road in those conditions in a newish car is beyond me. Anyway my bumper smacked right into the middle of the other cars front grille, not pretty. Police were called, insurance details exchanged, with the insurance company now, I may be charged under the road traffic act, great there goes my clean drivers license :( :( :(. I would have posted this yesterday but was too numb to post anything meaningful about anything and I'm beginning to go that way again so I'll stop now..

Happy Monday

2008-01-28T20:35:00.000Z

Hey people, yeah it's a Happy Monday why!
No bullshit from the sister today or for a while now she must be freaking learning..
Although on another note I think I'm going to have to let them in on a little secret - no not this blog, this is top secret from them (evil of me I know but Tough!!!!), no the secret that any electrical gadgetry that gets bought for the house I buy and get the money back later, I mean you'd think they could figure that out that many of the lights we have I bought, the digital TV reciever we have I bought and got the replacement when it died.. No they didn't they got a new vacuum cleaner even although the old one works it's just a bit noisy and maybe just needs a good clean out as all that gets done to it is the bag changed and when it wears out the drive belt nothing else. But No they got a new one and the ONLY way mum found out was because get this it wasn't the cheap one she'd heard about and wanted but a more expensive one they had to get and weren't sure, please note mother ISN'T allowed to use this cleaner or the old one since her operation. They also unwisely got another Digital TV receiver aka a DigiBox for the spare room so dad could got to sleep there with it on and not have mother worrying so much that he was falling asleep and getting cold, not to freaking mention all the lights & the TV being left on BURNING money and at 14.5p / KWh I object to shit like that as I have to top up the meter £ 15 used to now it's £20 and it's not even like it's lasting a week :|. I might have to turn off all my PC's if this continues so the valuable work they do when I'm not on them would be lost forever... I do know one reader who knows hat I'm on about as that's how in around about way I came to be on blogger because of this particular nice lady and team mate... She's still a nice lady (dispite what her kids may say about her).
Oh and it's happy me at work now although last week was a swine (read previous post) Oh and it took me most of wednesday / thursday to get the office back to rights with everything else that was going on, still a few things to be sorted but alas they are outside my realm of expertise.

So peace y'all

Devil - Deep Blue

2008-01-22T19:50:00.000Z

Hmm feel like I fucking stuck between the devil and the deep blue sea here aka the rock and a hard place.
Just as I was about to leave on Friday, boss asked to have a word..
Thought?????
He ripped into me saying I didn't look "interested" the day before when I was out working, in a bar pulling cable and it was fucking cold and I wasn't feeling 100% but of course that would have been seen as a "lame" excuse so I didn't even bother..
Basically told that another note would go in my file, that we both knew this, that he wouldn't put a written in although he could have. Apprently my colleague aka his son, sounded pissed off when he called to see how things were and all he saw was me cold, jacket wrapped around me looking miserable (aka not interested) and then I ask a question is "there anything else needs done?" a genuine question, I can't fucking read minds!
Today, I found out I was going to be working late, thought I have the job done by 4 but alas not so phoned, got sister, said I'd be able half an hour maybe, was 1 1/2 hrs...
I got the impression from the phone call I got back from her that I maybe should just give up the job since my hours "weren't suiting her" aka I was late, I don't work fixed fucking hours and she knows that already, of course if this happens again or I think i'll be running late I'll have that worry on my mind, not concentrate fully on job in hand and get fired for it or asked to leave etc...
So Do I 1) Resign with good reason 2) Stick it out even if I have no sanity left..

Wading through the BS!

2008-01-14T17:38:00.000Z

Okay, meant to post this yesterday but well forgot and well it's incredible really...
Okay mum did get shouted but only because she shouted at my sister 1st saying my dad was hungry, reply why not making him a sandwich - thing is my dad eats something and that's it for like 3-4-5 hrs, what they meant was like a cup of tea and maybe a biscuit but hey I wasn't there so as far as I'm concerned it could be BS!
They have applogised to dad in around about way or so they say. The op mum had will cause mood swings apparently but that's not being taking into consideration at all, also one sister has got the whole 9 yards of sobbing to a fine art you know the kind the "but,but,but" blubbering that a kid would do that style and going I'm worried what if this and if that and what if something else a lot of fucking what if's and I now have a "list" of things to do like I don't have enough to funking do - cooking dinner, putting dishwasher on, wiping stuff down, putting the washing on, doing the ironing, zoning out totally!
It includes stuff that I'm like WHY the fuck am I do I have to do that, I mean they come down they could surely do that take them no time as they are used to it..
ARGH!!!!

Would you do this....

2008-01-09T23:47:00.000Z

Okay here's the situation as you know mum isn't well, got headaches but the doc says she'll have them for a few months due to the operation she had, Dad isn't keep so good and what doesn't help is my "delightful" sisters coming in and yelling at mum to not do something like she's 5 yr old in front of my dad who they are "worried" about.
Now they are threatening to put her in a home which I think will pretty much kill dad but of course they are so blind they won't see that - my oldest sister I think is comparing mum to her mother-in-law who had senile demetia or parkinson's or something like that and couldn't be trust with anything. I get half the story from them and then I get the other half when I get home and the thing is, mum can do stuff she knows her limits or rather thinks she does steps over them and feels crap and get dad worried..
I'm doing what I can honest and dad knows this.
Okay she was told not to do anything heavy duty, no hoovering, ironing etc anything that would involve a lot of weight on her right hand as it's not 100% yet, she did get taking in on sunday as she did some hoovering but I think she overdid it - lesson learned - no she got shouted at on the monday about it, I get "told" as well, getting sick of that "tone" now.
Also she was told there was stuff in the freezer that she could cook for her and dad if I was going to be late or if they fancied it but now she isn't allowed as they might want chips with it - thing is this, mother never ever leaves the chip pan unattended - we have one that sits on the stove, it does the job nicely but no that's not good enough I think what's happening is sisters are hearing 2nd / 3rd hand and taking it the wrong way, nothing new there! She was told off about that as well before the both stormed out, now what was I saying about 5 yr olds...
None of this of course helps dad out he gets tensed up and that him all day practically. Today one of them was in and acted like "nothing" had gone on, no apology nothing....

So the question is this HOW The funk would you deal with this, stuck in the middle as I am should do apart from take both my sisters and bang their heads together!
I don't think mum should be in a home but I won't be asked that question as my sister will DECIDE, over my dad's dead body - his words by the way, not mine.