Peace...

Ah what a difference a day makes, or rather a fortnight. I can smile more okay there are times still when I feel down but these are fewer. So I think just maybe the "stuff" I'm taking is working. Yes it working I'm seeing the daylight once again.. It's nice. To those that matter thank you..

I guess it's meant to be

Okay now this is a strange one, anytime I've went to be like served some place I seem to get someone called Laura, no seriously i do. I went into the bank at the end of last month to put in my pay check who served me some lovely young woman called "Laura", and again today in McDonalds I was served by a Laura, actually it didn't matter what queue I took I would have been served by a Laura yeah they had 2 on the tills - very bizarre, I think it's God's way of telling me something and yeah I hear ya I get the message.
So I guess I'm going to have serious look into getting my passport and seeing how much it will cost and what I need etc.
I know this post seems a little random but that is me of late random, more so due to slight lack of sleep over the past week, oh and my sudden liking for Morgan's Spiced and coke,ice optional. The lack of sleep thing I'm still trying to figure out falling asleep around oh 12:30am dispite going to bed early enough like 11pm, waking up around 4:30am then again at like 5:50 then getting up at 6:30 to get ready to head out the door..
I did it again this morning only it was 6:30 and not 4 yet I did need to be up at 7:30 so I could go look after nephew who my sister seems to think I've abandoned, I haven't I just have to fit work, sleep, eating, cooking and the other stuff I have to do + "ME" time, so something has to give.
I mean let me see he had "canoing" with his scout group today, I got to know yesterday but only after I sent a text asking if the Football was still on or not as he had a match supposed to be today which got canceled due to erm a little gallon or 50 of rain. I did really stop all day, drank tea and maybe sat down for 5 minutes while waiting to get going but that was it really. After I got back from looking after "the brat", I cooked dinner and then went shopping, was told "if you get the same thing every week why don't ya order it online", well I'm sorry I'm one for actually going round and visually remembering what I need besides it's "my space".
So all in all from 7:30am to around 7:30pm I didn't stop..
It's now 1am, I'm just about ready to "crash"..
Oh and on another note, my dad isn't very well he's picked up a chest infection and well between that and the stuff he's taking he's erm "seeing things", so not good also because he's not really moving his bony ass his feet are starting to swell up :|, I'll see what I can't do about that, probably not a lot but we'll see.
Oh and my sister are trying to buy the house, and I can either go in or not if not I pay them "rent"!!!! I may as well pay the freaking morgage myself as they probably cripple me money wise, fuck 'em both - they say they aren't being evil, yeah RIGHT!

Okay.....

I think there is a tiny piece of tooth left in my gum and it's fricking annoying me, you know that. If I thought I could get the sucker out I would but it seems firmly attached and well like it a very high annoyance level whenever I accidently touch it.
As for the experimenting well it didn't happen I just couldn't be bother at all so I settle for a large Pina Colada instead, which worked a treat..
Now I just have to put up with the slight gnawing pain I get it's very slight and this freaking cold I think I've gotten thrown back at me.
Oh and I find out that my dear dad don't like the ham I got for sunday dinner :| and he hasn't liked ham for a while, why oh freaking WHY could someone not have TOLD me that oh wait it's coming to me know Im supposed to be a MIND READER, roll on tomorrow so I can get back to work and some sanity, I don't know mother has honed the habit of "hovering" and I'm sorry its getting to me now, she don't even realize she's doing it either so can't see why I'm getting all tense!

It's a little better now..

Well it's a little better now the thing still annoys slightly but I was told it would for the next few days as for Jack n Capt. M. well I do like 'em both shame I can't think of a way to combo them in a glass with something else - 1 drink and you probably wouldn't care much about anything :P that reminds me of a time I thought hmm time to finish off the last of this Czechoslovakia plum brandy I had, how did I get that a good friend of mine used to go out with a girl from the country - she was a little crazy to say the least, anyway he brought back some "shop" stuff and some "Home made" stuff, the shop stuff was tame, the home made stuff hmm nice, just don't burp afterwards. Anyway back on topic, I did have some "WKD Blue" - it's basically a premixed vodak based drink - tastes bubblegum / raspberryish I just felt like I needed a change so I went to a mate who was erm "helping me out" in drinking 'em - let's erm mix these too shall we.. Well you can mix WKD aka WicKeD with port to make what is called around here as "Cheeky Vimto" because it would have the colour of vimto but a major kick. Anyway this had a kick a major one - we had enough for one glass each - believe me that was enough... I really didn't care much after that.
*hic*
I do like experimenting but not with too many different drinks in a night that tends to end up BAD...

Toothache

Ouch, ouch, hmm concentration level 0 - well that was last night, I did manage to sleep how I don't now - I think I can thank 400mg Ibuprofen for that numbed it enough.
I phoned my dentist or the one I thought I was still registered at - well if the don't deregister you after so long :( I mean I've not seen a doc in god know but I know I can go and see him if I need to.
So got another number to phone and I got an emergency appointment this afternoon for them to have a look, it's a "student place", the dentist I got looked like the boss dude, he knew what he was doing, nice enough guy.. He had a look said well there are 2 options either I can remove the filling and kill the root but there really isn't much tooth left to work with and the tooth behind had broken anyway or he could remove them both which is what I said to do. So right now I'm sitting here with half my face de-numbing and the pain starting to kick in a little. Salt water mouthwash for me tonight.
Now this is what I get for years of forgetting to brush my teeth, after the fillings I knew they were screwed anyway.

Shopping.....

Why, oh why is it when you go shopping you always end up getting things you need yet you get other things that you didn't realize you needed or are on offer and when you get to the checkout with your shopping trolley, even if it is like the smallest one they have, you've some how spent a small freaking fortune.. I mean this wasn't for like a month, this was for like a weekly shop, I swear it gets more expensive every week.
I mean I then did forget a few things, darn it if I didn't bump into my sister, her friend, the nephew and the friends 1yr old.. that interrupted my train of thought.
Oh and some Energy Saving Bulbs ain't worth it....

Valentine's Day

It's that time of year again. What you mean you didn't know, you been living in a cave for the past month. If you've forgotten it might not be too late you know might just be able to get something.
Now it's all lovey dovey today is it not, it's the day your suppose to tell someone you really care about deeply that maybe it's more than care deeply you know maybe whisper those 3 words that although sound really easy to say "I" simple enough, "love" doable I mean you could be saying I love Pizza, "you" is easy too but put all three together and it becomes something exponentially greater than the sum on it's parts, it's a powerful statement.
So maybe today just read this and then go snuggle up to that special someone if you can do something you wouldn't normally do today for your partner, you don't need to go all expensive, sometimes it's just the thought that's gone into whatever you give that counts truely. If you can't be with that special someone a call, an e-mail with a pic maybe or a video clip or just something. You never know you just might make someone's day.

Wait I hear you cry what If I like someone but they don't know how to do I do that, cards, either real or e-cards (if you got their e-mail address), some places do allow anon maybe, even if you think they suspect you like them a little more than just a friend. You just never know they maybe like you a lot too but are afraid to admit it.
You never know who you might find, you just might find the one person in all the world that you just connect with at so many different levels, soul mate why because they can just somehow touch you and touch your soul even without actually physically touching you, it's one of those things that is so hard to explain you just know when it happens. It's the kind of person who you just need to think about and you feel relaxed or you talk to them and your trouble seem to melt away. It is the most surreal, superb and incredibly strange feeling or set of feelings you'll ever have.
I'm kinda feeling that way right now as I write this, I am thinking of one person, they know who they are, as do a few others that read here, okay probably most of my readship truth be told but I'm a private kinda guy.

So Sweetie

Happy Valentines Day.

P.S. Yes people this is a kinda fudged post but hey it's actually hard to write this you know.

Blog Fodder - "You get to “restart” your life at any age. When, and why?"

This week’s topic is a good one. It really makes you think about your life, and everything that has happened. You can thank Toy Reviews for this topic.

You get to "restart" your life at any age. When, and why?

I don't think I could "restart" my life at any point as I'd then do something different and take a different path and I wouldn't have "met" any of you guys.
I probably do a "hard restart" on my life and go back to being well 0. As to why well hmm seems like the logical place to start at the beginning once again, simplifies the whole deal does it not? It would possibly mean a few other things turn out differently as well - then again maybe not, maybe if I was to somehow do this I'd end up exactly where I am now who knows. Well I think that just about in a round about way answers this question :P.

Blog Fodder - "How does one handle work, home and family (or a combination thereof) without having a nervous breakdown?"

Hmm this topic brought to us by my delightful and camera shy friend Melonie, oh Laura you can tell her I said that :P.

"How does one handle work, home and family (or a combination thereof) without having a nervous breakdown?"
Im probably the least qualified to answer this as well family - nephew, sisters, parents, "home" hmm let's not go there, work .
How do I handle all this without going into meltdown, truth is I don't sometimes I just go "off on one" - let rip, blow of some steam.
My life consists of the following: Monday - Friday: Up at 6:30, out the door at 7, get to work around 7:45, work till around 4, sometimes longer if required, get home around 4:30-5 or later depending on what I've got to do after work.
Saturday / Sunday - I just wanna do nothing, truth be told I just Can't Be Arsed(CBA) doing anything after work / at the weekends.
Nephew some how drag some life and energy out of me when he sees me.
Im going to lay out this logic to show you what I do and I will explain it a little.
If (!at work && !seeing nephew && !out someplace) then location=at pc.
so there we have it, I have no life, only work, my nephew and the occational escape, you can normally of an evening find me sitting at my pc doing something.
I don't do the "social" thing unless I have to, I like to breathe, Moogie, anyone any tips on how to stop someone who's been smoking for > 50 yrs. Let's just say Me on a bad day x 3 and that's my dear father on a good day!
Nervous Breakdown, I doubt I'd know one if it hit me in the face to be honest.
I just get on with it as I've been doing for long enough.
Like I said I do blow off steam sometimes. I did this in what can only describe as a spectacular manner on saturday.
Now as many people know I play "world of warcraft" aka "WoW" now there is an expansion out for it, that went live last tuesday at midnight, 2 new races, a whole new area to go to, new quests, you can now get to lvl 70 instead of 60, etc.
Now I don't have this expansion - don't see the point, current char is a lvl 40 odd rogue. I however was seeing "new race" players with levels higher than me, so to cut a long story short, I basically went and said "there are people who are higher level than me, it only went live on tuesday they are 'NO LIFERS'" and then went on a rant as someone else just ticked me off. For my wonderous effort I got "booted" out the guild by my now former friend, who I've played various different computer games with for a good few years, and to top it all those who had the expansion were getting all the help they needed, I asked and never really got a response! Oh and my former friend and the my Former Guild master now has me on ignore. I DIDN'T EVEN GET TO FINISH what I was saying!!!! So Im having a night off tonight, although my new guildmates might wonder where i am.
Im off to watch the crap Hollywood remake of "War of The Worlds" + some other stuff