My Week / 6 degrees

Here is my real post for today..
So what's been really been happening since my last post on the house.
Well the Painter did come in last Saturday and start doing some work has been here all week, the hall, staircase and landing, the wood work's all been done apart from one piece which can't be done as it's needs to be put back up but that can't go on till the paper goes up of which some had to go back as it was damaged. The walls are all ready for papering now, the ceilings are as well. It has been a lot of work as there is quite a bit of woodwork and a lot of the wall needed to be "skimmed". I went out on Thursday (see my other post today). Oh and is it possible to fuck up more than to kiss a friend when they were feeling bad about themselves or was that a good thing, kissed her goodbye on Thursday as well ? All I can say is my heads screwed up now, hers too, although it was meant to be a simple kiss not how it turned out....
Goes to find shovel so he can bury himself somewhere.

Now moving swiftly on to the other part of the title "6 Degrees".
It is said that there are no more than 6 degrees of separation between person A & person B.
What I'd like you to do is try and get from this blog to your own blog using existing links from either blogrolls or direct post links and post how you did it
i.e Mine > Moogie's World > somewhere else > this one > that one > Your Own blog.
Should be fun I hope.

Chronicles of Narnia - Prince Caspian

Went to see this Thursday night and by the time I came home I was too tired to actually post about it, yesterday - no let's just leave that where it is..
It follows on roughly 1300 years after the the children left Narnia where it appeared only a short time had passed in the real world. 1 Year on in their time and they are awaiting the train, however someone had been given hold of Susan's fabled horn, and told only to use it when he felt in grave danger.
So Prince Caspian not knowing any better when he meets his first Narnian blows the horn, of course on the sight of the horn the 2 Narnians he encounters know what it is and defend him (after knocking him out for his own safety), and Susan, Edward, Peter and Young Lucy get dragged back to Narnia and wonder where they are, it's as usual left to Lucy and Edward to figure it all out.
The arrive back at "Cair Paravel", the palace they once ruled over Narnia with and they soon set out to find out what's going on after getting their battle gear,
King Peter the Magnificent with his sword and shield, King Edward the Just with his sword, Queen Susan the Gentle with her bow and arrow and Queen Lucy the Valiant with her deadly little dagger and bottle of Fire Flower which can heal the gravest of wounds.
They do bump into Caspian and well Peter kinda kicks his but when they battle, they soon realise he's the one that called them and it's game on to get the status qua back as Prince Caspian should by all rights be dead, since his scheming Uncle Miraz now has a son and heir to the throne and thus can declare himself King.
They all return to the Castle Prince Caspian escaped from since well most of his Uncles forces are out looking for him and the others so it will be an easy task..
Which it's not, the prince does manage to rescue his tutor who gave him the horn in the 1st place, but it's at a loss.
Everyone is now wondering where Aslan is but we are reminded nothing happens the same way twice, The White Witch makes a brief appearance when prince Caspian is tricked by her old right hand dwarf and almost comes back but this time Edward stops her.
There is a good battle after this and it could be compared to the great battle from the second of the Lord of the Rings films and just like that one, Aslan roars in and wakens up the trees as it's time which then proceed to destroy some of the war machine. There is more than this but why spoil it all..

Over all this is a good film, death count is up but once again done without all the blood and gore. Oh and I will say I love "Reepicheep" he maybe a mouse but has a heart as big as Aslan himself oh yeah and him and his mates kick butt :)

Look around

Okay dear reader(s), have a look at your profile, now taking mine as example
Location: "Fife" : "Scotland" : "United Kingdom" each is a link
click on each of them and tell me how many results are returned for each
Me I've just put Fife since it's a general area yours might be smaller
my figures to start are (including me)
Fife: 74
Scotland: 9,300
UK: 388,000
So a few people around about me blog, maybe get some more specific hits if I put other stuff in it's nice to know how many bloggers live in the same area as ya, you never know you might recognise someone..

Done.

Well actually nothing is done in this house, apart from me..
I'm done, finished can really take very little more I just want this house back and my sisters although I do love them so dearly to kindly piss off.

I'd rather be...

Well I'd rather be someplace else right now than here, although the painter is meant to start THURSDAY!!, mum arrives back on Sunday. Need I say anymore?
Sanity rating: - error - Oh great my sanity meter has broken again!
Yeah, I heard that from the back, It did work (at one point in the semi-recent past).
Now as to where that someplace could be is anyone's guess, bleh why do we need passports...
Oh work is doing good..
Oh and I got made a moderator on a forum I'm a member off, due to all the work I've done...
Speaking of which back to that - trying to get something to appear on another image, should be simple, but it's not working even if everything says it SHOULD!

And Then . . .

And then there was a week where 0 happened...
Serious 0 happened last week, the decorator appears to be MIA somewhere else, didn't book him so can't confirm or deny he actually said he'd come but I have his number it will be getting called. Mum does know all this as she did ask and I don't lie to mum it's not needed. The "Twins" are buying the house they go see the bank et al tomorrow about it all, but from the looks of it they get the mortgage I pay the bloody thing as well as food etc.. fair hell no but I am totally and utterly past caring bloody more anymore...
They said it will be between this and that, and this will happen and if this happens we'll discuss it at the time,etc., etc. I went "fine" in a pissed off tone.. I was told ".. well you had the chance to buy it, we didn't think you wanted to so we're buying it.". I went "fine" to that too..
Oh and after 15 yrs then it's their "profit" time unless I've bought them out so to speak blah, blah, blah, blah, blah!
Oh they've figured out I'm pissed off at the painter not arriving but apprently he's been called 4 times and no return calls...
I'd put up some pics but I don't wanna depress you dear, dear reader any more.
Home, lol it's anything BUT.

Oh yeah and Magners Cider is very, very nice ice cold, It goes down even smoother...
I might need to restock it maybe..

And so it Ends, yet so it Begins I think!

Ok time for that weekly update, I will dear reader try to post more, I know, I know I keep saying that!
Okay so what's begins and what's ended I here you say...
Well my dear colleague at work has decided she no longer wants to be my friend, her loss, more later this is the summary paragraph. As to the begins well the painter is meant to be starting this week but I just found out today he doesn't know all the paint that's to be used ARGH!

Ok, now on to the reasoning behind the ending, I tell you this it's petty to say the least, she picked the wrong night to annoy me is all I will say. Now last Monday we were meant to go out and see the new "Indian Jones" movie, which I saw today with my nephew and his friend, well I needed to spend quality time with him and it was either a movie or bowling, and believe you me bowling was out. Anyway back to point, I send my now ex-friend a text message saying I still had a bit to do in the house and I wanted it done for the painter coming in or words to that effect, it's not like she's not called off nights out before, see a few previous posts for that. Well I actually did nothing on Monday as after work I was totally shattered having worked quite a long day on the Sunday, all weekend was work. I had said the movie was "on hold" meaning we could reschedule for a later date, I was thinking of today for that but that was blown totally! Now I had said this to her, that I was sorry but I had too much to do and I actually ended up doing nothing. Friday it all comes out, I was tired and she comes out with something like you should try a weekend shift in here and well then goes on about how she was looking forward to seeing the movie on Monday and how it put a damper on her day (or something like that), I went "Now you know how I felt!" real close and to her face......
Of course this got the exact reaction I expected, yeah she's that predictable, I got
that it wasn't very nice and that's she's always given me a days notice if she wasn't going to be able to make it, well that's Bollocks for a start, I've seen me ready to head out the door when my phone's went for her to cancel!! I have went myself a few times as I've really wanted to see the film in question, anyway later on I check my phone and see 2 messages, 1st message read Bye, let's just keep this professional or something like that basically friendship over, her loss... 2nd message was a sorry for what she said earlier, I reply as it was the later message I think with okay, you mean the "Bye" message, I get back "No, not that and don't phone me at Home!", I went "okay, this will be the last text message I send to you", done and dusted. I mean as I was driving home, my phone goes it's my "colleague" I had put one of the phones in the office on divert to another basically got a few phones in the place some It's okay to divert others it's not advisable to divert, we got main office phone + 5 other phones for various things. Now it's simple enough to divert / remove divert it's a standard code followed by extn / external number , I had one phone diverted to the main phone and got a call on how to cancel it. I "blinked" at this, I went it's as the same code as you use to divert it after you've come back in the office, she went on about it would be hard later on when she went to lock up and had to divert the phone to the mobile we got, I shook my head at this, and NO she's not blonde, if she was she could be forgiven....

Now onto the "beginning" or is it, I have no actual idea if the painter is starting this week or not as like I said he don't know what all the paint colours he needs, Why oh WHY could someone not have told me this LAST week and this could have been all sorted out, Freaking Secret service would be less trouble. Oh that and well my sister who arranged it all hasn't actually heard from him a start date, can you believe that... If he don't freaking start tomorrow or Tuesday I think I go "nucking futs" at someone, and dear reader can ya blame me.

Okay now onto what else has been happening since my last post.
Well like I said the laminate flooring in the upstairs hall was "okay" but i felt it floated around a bit as well dear dad had fitted it under the skirting and some if not all of the walls have nothing really at the bottom to stop anything just going on, result the boards could move about. I took it all out and relaid it with the correct bits to go under the doors, although I had to modify them so the fitted right. That's almost done as I did that yesterday and today mainly all the boards had to be cut a slow task as some had cut outs to go around the woodwork / pipework, just need to trim a few more boards and I'm done it will be all tight and won't move well it will at the stairs but I need speak to the carpet fitter and see what he's doing so I can get the right part for there. Kitchen is done, I've not checked a few of the windows as I think they are all sanded enough to be painted, will find out soon enough, well maybe :P. I do know that the 2 bedrooms are fine as is the living room.
I did take Monday off and who can blame me I worked non-stop last weekend, just like I did this weekend I stopped last night at 11pm this was from about 10am, did some shopping, put washing on, did some of the floor, dumped all the bags of wall paper I had kicking about, lost count of the number of these, a lot is all I can say, back to the floor, ate, floor till 11pm - it was dark and I was screwing up, I've managed to cover up the few screw ups - not really my fault just seems strange I measured it very accurately and was too short sometimes :(. Well Wednesday was a fun morning, we'd arranged an uplift of stuff that was going out and well no-one had told me it needed to go out on Tuesday night so it had to go out Wednesday morning, before breakfast had been eaten as well and before "Tea" had even touched my lips! Well we also had the council in to replace the kitchen ceiling as water had leaked through it and it had black mold on it not nice at all! Nice new ceiling now. Finished the Kitchen between Thursday and Friday nights. I'm taking the week off as I don't think I need to do anything next week at home.
Oh and I persuaded mum to stay away another week, "brownie" points to me..
Toddles

Sunday Update

Remember how I said all that needed doing was the kitchen after I'd finished the spare room erm well I found out the spare room ceiling was being redone as well as the paint / paper was cracking so off it came slowly got most of it yesterday. The top landing ceiling was to come off as well, this basically leads down the stairs now thankful (or rather unthankfully there was a "false ceiling" put in at some point so as to make it easier to paper the ceiling it's either that or you have a piece of ceiling which is about 12 ft high to try and get to and paper not easy at all, now thing was the ceiling looked loose or rather one part did as you could move it with you hand like it just needed renailed but of course had to check behind it to find where to put the nail and see........
Well erm at some point many, many years ago the council put insulation in the attic, not the standard yellow coloured "glass wool" insulation you see, this was what looks like recycled shreaded paper - great insulator / noise killer, anyway at some point or other, before / after someone must have put their foot through the ceiling right near the top of the false ceiling (perhaps the reason it was done), anyway of course you can imagine what's happened quite a quantity of this paper stuff had fallen in. We took it off to have a look end well, 4 bags + a load in the bin later, we had cleared it away, of course dust everywhere because it was that fine.
So today I spent doing a little bit of ironing either that or no shirt, trousers for work tomorrow, finishing off the ceiling in the spare room, sweeping all that into a black bag. Doing the same to the top landing ceiling so those are all done.
Now all that is left is the kitchen and all I now need to do is check all the windows are sanded down sufficiently to paint it. Oh yeah and I noticed the laminate flooring upstairs needs looked at as some of it has moved - need to nail it down and get the right bits for doorways so that it all looks nice since it just had metal strips down from when there was carpet everywhere and not carpet one side laminate the other.

This is the week that was..

Okay update time, I suppose.
A zen like peace is now in session, well I had to turn the music down it is late :p.
Mother arrived safe and well down south and has been relaxing all week, mainly sleeping but hey she needed it, she's off to another cousin's tomorrow for a week then to my aunt's for a week and we'll see what happens from there. Oh yeah my cousin after she called on the thursday phoned my sister and erm had a go (well she's allowed, mum is her godmother after all:D), with one of my other cousins helping out, it isn't a good idea to upset that cousin, I was glad I was sitting down when I was told this as I was laughing so hard, she did say mum looks a lot better now gone is the "someone's given me a black eye" look so result :). I cried at that but don't tell anyone..

My week has been interesting.
Saturday - took out and put back the fire surround thing once I had taken away all the bits of wallpaper from behind - I then proceeded to clear the whole wall with help of a mate.. Sisters turned up 1 after the other sort of. "Thinking out loud" in the kitchen as to how to re-arrange it, I said "no" often, till they gave in. It might not seem functional but I like it the way it is and I can work in it even if those 2 can't, oh and they did try and throw stuff out that "wasn't any use" (to them). It was put back and the place re-arranged so I can work it.
Sunday did the shopping and sanded down mum's bedroom - which I've discovered needs looked at as it's not working 100% it sticks not good.
Monday - back at work and thus I couldn't be bothered doing anything so just chilled.
Tuesday - busy (ish) at work so again chilled out I just think I needed the "space" even if mate did come round.
Wednesday - Work and Invaded as older sister did say she'd be down I said just do the bottom hall as it's not much and that will do. Other sister decides to come down afterwards and work clearing the paper off the stairs - I finished it AND tidied up..
Thursday - Work and I finished the top hall off as well as the bit not done on the stairs, thank god the ceiling is being re-papered as half of it has come off (it's bleeding woodchip - whoever invented that paper needs shot it's cheap, nasty and a swine to remove).
Friday - Work, yeah the WEEKEND! did some work on the spare room to clear it and did about 30% of the room will do the rest tomorrow and hit the kitchen on sunday as that is all that is left really.
Next week - double check it's all been done, touch up sanding etc..
Result I think..
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I don't know what's more stressful right now work or home..

Right now I don't honestly know what's more stressful...
A) Work - trying to figure out where each invoice I have listed in the system is and what it pertains to as well all I have is Invoice number,a name as the descriptor and create date, all is fine and well but how am I supposed to tell the invoice for a call out charge, a repair of a system, the replacement of an alarm or the general annual maintenance internal invoices when the file name is just the name who it's went to!
ARGH, I mean I've got to try and figure out who's paid for their maintenance this year and thus need to have their alarm service but I'm STRUGGLING to understand the electronic filing system that's been employed as nothing adds up... The JOYS!
or
B) Home - the walls are bare, the floors are bare, decorator coming in 2 weeks, walls look smooth enough to me to paper onto for me oh that and I'm going to have to try and figure out how the FUCK I'm going to fix a light in the bathroom that's been knocked out due to BITCH 1 being over zealous when she was taking the paper off the ceiling - ARGH! It's so bad , I'm booking mother on a flight down south to visit my cousin for a while, then my aunts etc. Still don't know when she wants to go as she needs to sort a few things out 1st. I am also at the end of my tether any more and I'm just gonna blow and things will get freaking messy.
Sisters who the FUNK would have them, mine I wouldn't give them to my worst enemy, yeah they are that bad!
Where did I put the prozac...

Update time

Okay so what has happened since my last actual post (the 2 below they are side notes).
Well let me see, in no particular datal order.
I've been to the Dental Place - they went to try and fix the tooth I said was bugging me and they can't fix it really it will have to come out or it will give me more grief. So I've to book another appointment and get an impression taken so that I can have that tooth and a few others that are now missing (darn sweet tooth of mine, well that and forgetting to brush sometimes).
So yeah basically I'm gonna end up with a few teeth that ain't my own - lovely.
Remember the house, well there is defiantly no wallpaper left or carpets they have all gone. There was a wardrobe that I was going to take to pieces and bring down but I never got that chance, FUCKING impatient BITCHES sorry sisters of mine decided not to wait even although the arranged collection date was oh a week away, all the stuff to be picked up was picked up last Wednesday, they needed it out so out it came but it would fit around the corner of the stairs so they basically destroyed the handrail, spindles and baseplace on one side of the stairs, so they could get this thing out, it went out in bits. Now I'm having to replace that as well, was hoping not to just sand it down so it could be painted but NO!!! I think you can imagine the sort of anger level I hit at when I saw it.
Oh and I get this bullshit about "picking sides" again, when will those 2 learn I've picked already but they are too stupid to notice.
On another note, the new carpets are picked and mum went back to the place she's getting her new suite from and saw a few items she like that were exactly as she wanted..

Oh yeah speaking of things mum likes, I was asked to go pick some stuff up on the way home one day from the local Argos, I just managed to fit it in the car, it was bit tight shall we say. I had the next day off due to car getting a new sump fitted, well £ 194 later it was done..
Anyway I'm at home and the rest of the Argos order arrives and I'm like What the freaking hell is all this doing here, oh that and mum's not pleased either.
They had ordered a new dinner service (we hated the cups), new kettle n toaster set - we can never get a toast that toasts just right it's either black/deep brown or white instead of the golden colour we like - don't need either of them. Bread bin - we got one of them and it's useable, also to match it tea, coffee & sugar containers - both went back no need for them. Black Marble place mats - I was like erm "NO" - sent back as mum didn't like at all. New Cutlery to go with it all - looked shit. This was all put up the stairs out the way, it was then brought back down put in the sitting room by my older sister, younger one had to go pick up le brat I mean the nephew, she then Stormed out - toys out the pram style, bank card was handed back with words like "there so you can accuse me of stealing your money!", done in a not very nice way really. It was all done to fact that all the stuff was bought but no receipts were ever given to my mum so she could see how much she was spending, I now have all of them, the stuff went back to Argos and the money is back in the account.
I've got around to sanding down the woodwork that needs doing so that it can be painted and I've sourced a new hand rail, base rail, spindles - I just need to get them from the shop home, they won't fit in car, 2.4m long no way, going to have to work that one out.
The decorator will be here at the end of the month.
Oh the weather this week wasn't too bad - pity all the good stuff happened while I was stuck in the office... was around low 70's all week, weekend it rained.
Work however is good.


Gordon signing off.

Jump for Life...

Hey head over to Chez Moogie say hi and help raise some cash for the AHA and help Meelie on her way to her target :)..

Echoes in the dark

I picked up a big notebook I'd not used in a while and stumbled across this, written a few years ago now but true.
For I am forever balancing the light and the dark.

Echoes in the dark

Silent voices echo in my mind,
Echoing in the spaces between heartbeats,
Sometimes saying something, often saying nothing,
Different voices, echoes of joy, fear and lonelyness.
People all around, yet still alone,
Words been spoken without meaning,
Words been spoken without thought,
Words hurting like dagger wounds,
Hurting like ice to the soul
Fragmented the soul becomes,
Broken,yet safe and alive.
One tiny hope, a ray of light,
A light to lead the way,
But to where to be lead to and for what?
A voice cries out in the darkness,
Alone, you race ahead, hoping to save,
You come across the Abyss,
It's so dark, deep and yet soothing.
That voice again, this time telling you something,
You strain to hear, almost falling into sweet oblivion.
It's at that point you realise, it's yourself,
A soul pleading, don't give in be strong.
So here I walk the line,
The line between darkness and the light,
The eternal edge of the blade.

Voices still echo,
Echo in the night, in the space between dreams.
It's a battle, never won, never lost.
An eternal battle between the light and the dark.
In the shadows I must remain, ever twilight.
Looking into the abyss and laughing, knowing enough
Knowing enough to know,the abyss shall never claim me
And so the battle goes on...

(c)Me 2005

The ups, the downs and the downright strange aka My Week

It's been a while I know, I should post more often but I don't.
So what's been going on since my last post well the house is looking like it's been hit by high winds, there is paper missing everywhere, few rooms / areas have escaped the carnage that is my 2 sisters the seem hellbent on redoing the house how they want it, my mom god bless her is having none of it, she is saying no when it matters :). The kitchen ceiling is a mess at least one panel of plasterboard will need replacing if not 2. The spare room is now just that it looks sparce as well erm the carpet has been lifted, some furniture removed I think even the bed is gone although not sure on that one I'd have to look again and I'm not going to do that just yet. My room is escaping for the simple reason I said my room is fine, leave well alone! (or else) the or else being that well let's just say I can be what can only be termed "a right ass" and I could also change the locks, evil ME...
Anyway enough about the house and on to the rest of my week.
Last Saturaday I was invited out to Dundee to a mates birthday celebratory pub type crawl, not a proper pub crawl just we seem to hit a few of them is all..
It started off so well, The first one was a "Dundee FC" pub and Queen of the South had just beat them that afternoon and I went Oh yeah Queen of the South they did well against Aberdeen in the Cup.... my mate Dazz goes "this is a Dundee pub and they just got beaten by Queen of the South", I went "okay, new pub time :D"..
We then hit the balcony bar which was a nice little place quiet just the way I like it, of course we seemed to managed to have the one guy who was drunk already wander to our table, I mean by wander he had to get up some stairs and round the corner minding to duck as there is a beam about 6ft of the floor just around the corner, I love been short :D. We then went to "Starz" yeah with a Z everything that should have ended in an S ends in a Z in this place, it was okay the music was just about bareable then on comes this "muzak" and the DJ signing over it and stuff so we erm left and went to Dazz's "Local" which turned out to be a very, very fine Irish Pub with a brilliant Guitarist / Singer who well let's just say he's not very PC with the songs. Was ace, oh and through all this I only drank cola as I was driving home, next time I'm arranging for a bed someplace so I can drink.. That was the "up"
The "down" well that was pretty much "work" Monday to Wednesday.
Monday the boss and the "other" boss was in, stuff came in, I forgot to "Fax" copies to the other office as I thought copies had been taken - No.
Should have figured this out and faxed them Tuesday. Wednesday was a total downer - faxed the stuff only after I got asked if anything had come in.... :| and did that technically I wasn't meant and "broke" it or appeared to break it...
Thursday was strange the "broke" thing unbroke but then discovered other stuff that was broke late on, much of strange day - I love re-writing procedures so they all make sense and are all in the same layout not 20 different ones IN CAPS, bold, non-bold etc.. So I'm still freaking copy/pasting them into one document god bless "paste as unformatted text" which saves me all the hassle well a little - I still gotta reformat stuff like page titles and that.
Other Strange things this week include mum goes to new this and that and not actually bothering about the cost of it.
Oh and one last thing - I booked my checkup appointment at the local "Dental Access Place" - I can't find a dentist (well not really looked hard as well erm yeah that kinda thing) and now one of my other teeth is starting to give grief ARGH!

And then there was...

Well the service on my car didn't all get done at once due to it needing a new part and the garage don't keep them in stock, that and it will take more that a Saturday morning to fix it, it's going to have to go in during the week :-S the joy of that, the more I think about it the more I like the idea of just taking that day off work saves the hassle of trying to get the car into the garage, then into work on time or as close to, we shall just have to see, oh and it will cost me another £170 to get this done.

Zen...

So what's happening at Chez Gopher, well let me tell ya my sisters are taking over or it just seems that way...
My Aunt's been up for 2 weeks so bliss the minimalistic amount of cooking not that it actually bothers me, scrolls back to see what he wrote last time...........
I know it wasn't that long ago but it just seems it and the last post was kind of "out there random off the wall I'm pissed and blowing off steam" type of post.
Now things appear to be semiantly stabalist, hey the might not be spelled correctly or even exist but hey that's just a minor point and I'm allow them.
Now works be flipped, turned upside down or it just seems that way..
Well let's just say there is a new rota being put in place due to someone not doing as asked and getting what was coming to them, now where that left me I wasn't sure but I am at least sure now.. Dayshift mainly, 9-5 weekdays not the 8-4 could argue same-o-same but it's NOT. I answer the phones, take messages, transfer when needed, collect the mail and dump it into a tray to be collected I don't even need to open it :D, do the admin work, handle the deliveries and returns (it will be done right from now).. Typing up / modifying of work.
Meanwhile back at the ranch......
There are plans afoot to redecorate pretty much the WHOLE house, my room is mine so "Hands the hell off", the rest you can do with as ya like, it's a pity all the woodwork has a dark stain on it, I think it would look nice lighter but no painted it shall be, it does make sense just seems a LOT of money is being spent very quickly but I'm staying the HELL out I like life and I wanna keep breathing.

On a lighter note mum and I went out shopping yesterday well she was bored and wanted to go someplace and the shopping needed done afterwards we went to a local garden centre for lunch. It ended up an expensive weekend why because apart for shopping and lunch, my beloved car was due it's Annual service I threw some money at it and it's not done yet as still waiting on a price for a part.

Can I just say go visit Laura say hi, oh and wander over to Barb's and sit a spell..

What do I do now?

Okay I'm firmly at a loss here....
I pretty much live my own life even although I stay in my mum's house, I wake up, go to work, come home, eat dinner, and then sit at the PC and then sleep..
I do talk to her while I'm waiting on dinner getting ready and maybe eating it and a little in the morning but other than that not much...
Thing is of late, well ever since the "op" she had to remove the bruised blood on the inside of her head that screwed her speech up a bit and stuff. She's not been able to handle alcohol at all..
Now I don't know if it's just not being able to handle it or it's a combination of the alcohol and something she's been given to take at night but I've found her a few times on the floor, pissed as a fart and unable really to apparently get up.
Now I have said to her if she had a drink and is in bed and wants something to eat to just come as me and I'll go do it - no...
She tries to make something and fails always seems to have a banana in her had as well
strange that.. I mean she's fallen downstairs - no damage really she's been fine I checked her over, fallen out her seat in the sitting room straight forward as well knocking stuff over never breaking it as well..
Now we all know that "alchol" solves nothing, the thing is she's never been able to really talk to me and vice versa so starting now would be really hard.
It pains me to see her like that and no way can I move her at all, she has to do that herself and does eventually. I just cover her up with a blanket and make sure she's okay as best I can...
Does my head in like but I can't stop her drinking totally - even although she's just said after my aunt goes home "no more alcohol in here" not what I asked her to do - I just said cut down a little or don't take your tablets till your in bed and got something eat....
ARGH as all Mothers this FREAKING STUBBORN???

Thank You

I'd like to thank 3 lovely ladies on behave of my dear sweet mum, your gift arrived today and it's lovely, it will be cared for tenderly and will hopefully bring joy for at least a few months / years depends on how long it take for the green fingers to wear off..

So To Laura, Barb and Melonie - Thank You

** Hugs you all tight **

The ending of a chapter...

Well that's it over and done with, dad's in heaven now. The service was lovely minister did us proud, reminding us of how he was, not how he was at the end. So many faces I haven't seen in years were there but ask me who was and I could tell you all I can tell you is maybe just about who came to the buffet we had afterwards I think a few came to the service but then left, possibly out the other door I don't know. I was fine all through the service even when the closed the curtain, it was a cremation you see. I was holding it together real well then they sang the "Old rugged cross" I think I got about 2 words out and that was it, how I stayed upright I don't know only way I can think was God was holding me up, my mum couldn't sing it either we just stood holding on to each other...
So this is the end of the chapters of my life that feature my dad and on to chapters new where he'll still feature but just as a shadow..

Dad, thank you for giving me life, and the never ending curiousity for how things worked as it helped me so much and it defines who I do things I take a problem pull it apart see how it works or doesn't put it back together again as a solution, that and many other things besides..

My Dad 4/3/33 to 22/3/08 - Rest in Peace

Well it's finally over I think I knew that last night as I wrote the post, I knew he didn't have long, he died this morning at around 3am, I think I'm still not sure, he went peacefully in his sleep at least that's something.
The funeral is this Friday, I'm leaving all that to my sisters it will take all I have to keep plodding on, being strong for those who need it and I'm still going in to work on Monday as by then I'll need "space" and something resembling normality..
So long dad, it's been being fun and interesting knowing you, somethings you taught me I didn't realise you had done, thanks for that.