What a Day

Hmm Had to work today, I know everyone else off today and I had to work thank god for radio, Radio 1 to be precise they did a 10hr pick your own songs type show and it was a cracking good show apart from one glitch...
Why oh WHY would anyone in their right mind want "Spice Girls - Wannabe" played - full listing is available at the website just look for "10 hour takeover" or similar
I got to clean the house over the next few days ARGH I hate cleaning..

Films

Argh!! Darn it Can't watch any of them... DVD drive appears to be broken either that or the software has gone and died... Argh wasn't able to watch anything... and I won't until I can figure it out and get it fixed

Easter Weekend

Oh the joys of easter, hmm well maybe...
Lets see this year I've not got any easter eggs and not bought any not even from my nephew, mind you he'll get enough from other people..
I also got work the long weekend :| oh well at least it should be quiet at work - well maybe....
Hmm learned a new command today: End What If :)
I've stuck a whole load of them in the program that is my life...
Ah! much better...
Hmm the only things I now got worry about is watch Film to watch next

No More Alcohol.....

Though it was about time I stuck another entry into this online diary of my life (what there is of it).
Well I decided a few weeks ago that I wouldn't get anymore alchol like i normally do when Im not working the next day, so far so go, been almost a month.
Alcohol wasn't "doing anything" for me, wasn't helping me forget, was more like showing me the "darkness" Not a Good Idea at all.
I watched Donnie Darko the other week on DVD and I got it 1st time, got me thinking it did..... Life is what it is and nothing can change that even if you could change time other things you might not want to happen will happen... A Paradoxical Thought eh..

"The Darkness....."
Hmm why I still go back to all the point of my first true relationship, looking for things I could have done differently, things I should have done, things I shouldn't have (possibly), should have said, should never have said (words can hurt greater than any blade can). Think IF ONLY, but now it's too late for that.
Those who say "you'll get over it" or "go out and find someone new" have never felt the true pain of breaking up with someone you deeply love.
Im one of those people, I wear my heart on my sleeve, what can I say...
I show my emotions the full range, I cry, weep, sob, smile, laugh, giggle, glow with inner happiness, blush, grimice and all the other emotions you can feel... although the negitive ones don't get to rear there head that often, I try not to bear grudges etc..
There I've Said it.. Heartache takes Time but at least I can say "I feel"