Body Language & the Finality of it all

Hmm took me a while but erm dang I just realised Im totally crap at reading it... oh well just goes to show how much I suck at somethings...

Hmm only 2 more days at work then I'm off for a whole 3 days woo hoo....
Hmm Finality.. well maybe, maybe not...
Yes if you don't could a 21st B/day party in the middle of next year... lol

D-Day

Hmm well it went okay, I suppose... hmm
Was there for 90 minutes which is longer than had intended but it was good, kinda finalised things...
give her an "air kiss" goodbye, don't know why habit I suppose...
Some habits die hard...

Feels strange now...
Oh well there is always June to consider, her 21st... don't know if I wanna go right now, I think I will

Don't Ya Hate having to Tidy Up..

Well I decided tidy up today and found a whole load of paperwork that could be thrown out... Hmm tested my nice new xmas pressie out too, the Paper Shreader...
Works a treat too, only 24hrs to go until D-Day... I'll be fine...
Maybe

Xmas Working and 2 Days to D-Day

Hmm Gotta love working xmas day... nothing to do but move the cameras on the sites around... yawn for 12hrs but hey it passes the time...
Hmm got some nice presents: a couple of DVD's, hmm chocs, bottle of whiskey (erm not a single malt - must be from work :P), more chocs, hmm new electric toothbrush (hmm someone hinting at something) and erm a minishreader - DEFINATLY hinting at something... hmmm sitting here chillin' out with my mate listening to Morcheeba - Parts of the Process and drinking Tia Lusso over ice...

Happy Xnas Everyone :) and Thank you for keeping my sprits up :)
Oh Now on to the bad stuff... 2 days till I go and give someone her present.
Hmm this should be fun to handle. :-S

Hmm Day 5 at work..

Hmm nice quiet day at work, hmm yeah right...
Well it was...
Hmm oh well I can now look forward to lets see oh yeah a whole 2 days off
Im working Xmas day.. :-S
My Computer is acting up more than John Cleese doing a cheese commerial... lol

It's Been a While Since That Dark Day...

Hmm still feel lost, empty..
Strange it's been a while, almost a month.
Where does time go
Can I win her back who knows?
Can we ever get back together after whats gone before?
We'll see I still have a xmas present for her gonna give it to her after xmas..
That will be hard to do I think.
Hmm only 4 more days at work to go...
Dang Holiday cover
Oh well

Interesting Day

Hmm Got up,
gave my car an oil change, really simple to do but a little messy if you don't watch what yer doing... hmm
Went to See LOTR: TRK - 3hrs long but *jaw drops* *2 thumbs Up* rocking good film, can switch bits of me off that hurt and just be absorbed into the film..
There are one or 2 bits that had me crying I will admit that but not saying where cos I'm not gonna spoil the film
Oh Well Work tommorrow

Poetry

Hmm Wrote a poem today while at work...
It kinda sums up what and how and maybe why I feel the way I feel.
Answers some questions asks more... hmm intresting mind you my poetry always is.

Saturday

Did not much...
Got some PHP done... split my mp3 list generator into to parts
the generator part and the display part... hmm display's much faster now as it reads from a file... got to the filtering back in... hmm cos its showing files it shouldn't.... hmmm
played a few games...
Hiding from the world....
No Alcohol...
Oh well maybe 2morrow I'll start my xmas card writing...

The Weekend

Hmm The weekend is here again... dang what to do for my next 4 days off...
I know NOT drink....
No Alcoholic Drinks... Good Idea...
Hmm Shopping, Games, Learn more PHP maybe..
Who Knows..........

Hmm One of those Days At Work...

Hmm every had on of those days where nothing is simple...
I had one of those days today...
Hmm simple task of stocktaking what equipment was where and it should have been a simple case of counting numbers, what was out, what was broken, what was sitting in our depot...
But NO... we get the "in" a house list and it's not in an order we can use...
The "broken" list isn't remotely like the written one we got last week and hmm
to top it all they "list" of where stuff was was had loads of errors in it...

Monday....

Hmm Well still numb, but feeling a little better.......
Got work 2morrow so I'm really gonna love going there...
Hmm what did I actually acheieve since Friday... Hmm
Got 1 and a bit christmas pressies oh well only so many to go...

It's a Dark Day...

It's a dark, dark day.... My relationship of 3 years is over...
Feeling hmmm Numb, lost, disorentated and that's without alcohol

Hmm Think I'll get Plastered... It won't help I know but heck what else can I do
Argh...
*cries a bit* knew it was a bad Idea puting that song on.... mind you this the time for pain...
Hmm as Im writing this I got a dang add for datingdirect.com how unlucky is THAT...

Hmmmmmmm

Dang another HOT day at the office, and My office was kinda one of the coolest, have hinted to the MD we need A/C but erm doubt we'll get it as were "renting" the offive space... so absolutly no chance of it... :( Dang Need To get a Huge Water Cooling System Built into the Office :D hmm wonder how many CPU Heat Exchangers I can manage to fit in that Rack.... *grins Evily*
Mind you suggested it to the MD and he didn't like the Idea. Water and Micro Electronic Boxes which cost ££££ might not mix :| *oh well*
Thank God Once I got home I could change into something a bit more cooler... My "T in the Park" T-shirt and shorts... (not a pretty sight lol) and of course be able to get some nice "liquid refreshment" to cool down ;)

Day 3 of my Shift at Work

Argh... Dang Security Manager is "ill", so is my supervisor but He had phoned in 1st, so I suspect maybe the Manager is pulling a fast one...
oh and our H & S Officer is erm "recovering" after going to T in The Park (swine) apparently he went there nursing a cold *twit*
Oh Well thankfully a little less work to do today...
Only One thing about having like erm a dozen 14 TV Monitors + ( 14 Video Recivers + other bits of Equipment in a 19" Rack Cabinet) it gets bloody warm even on a dull day so it's BLOODY WARM now... even with a couple of fans... hmm got a fan like hmm 2 feet away from me kept me cool when I was sitting at my desk... no good if I had to move to file paperwork :| Need A/C

T in The Park Again.....

Listened To a bit of it earlier and it sounds great especial as the sun is shining all I wanna do is kick back and let the sound roll over me, but I alas I couldn't, dang work....
I hear they managed to get the 3 scottish tenors to do the Closing Bit, Singing Flower of Scotland Their way... Totally Class and I'm missing it cos I got Work 2morrow....

T in The Park

Dang!! Possibly One of The Best T in the Park's of all time and I'm working :|, dang the sun is shining and I'm stuck in the office with more dang areas to sit and monitor on camera... *Silent Scream*
And oh the 19" cabinet is a health & Safety disaster waiting to happen....
oh Well NOT MY Problem :> (God I love Managment sometimes :D)

What a Lovely Day

Hmm Don't ya just love summer, hmm lets see woke up, switched phone on to discover a message from a mate asking me to go collect him, so replied and well lets just say it was a fun day... man ice cold drinks all round... hmm need sleep now though... Ramble Ramble Ramble :P

Wooo Hoo No Work Til Saturday

Dang oh Well Got up for to get ready and went to work only to discover I had got it wrong not meant to be back at work till Saturday :D ya ya ya Nice

Argh Back To Work Tommorrow

Argh! I don't wanna go back it tooo soon, I wanna stay off a little while longer but alas I can't, so it's back to work for the next 8 days (don't ask - complex holiday / recovery type thing, we need more staff really so we don't need to do this any more)
So roll on 5:30am
AAARRRRRRRRRRRRRRRRRRRRRRRRRRRR
GGGGGGGGGGGGGGGGGGGHHHHHHHHHHHHHHHHHHHHH!
<whimper>

Holiday Feeling Wearing off...

Well The holiday feeling wore off about oh let me see 20 minutes after I got home... Dang Parents I didn't need to know half the stuff they told me but that's parents for ya... Oh yeah Back to Work on Tuesday for another 8 days :(
Would have added this yesterday but I'm trying to keep my entries per day down :P as if that will stop me...
Oh well time to go find some thing to drink that may / may not be alcohol...

The Holiday

Well It wasn't exactly a great holiday weather-wise, had a lovely weekend last weekend and a nice last day but other than that it's been wet and dull and generally not "summer", oh hang on i forgot I live in the UK so that was Summer :-P.... lol Lets see don't really remember the journey down (see previous entry as to why)
Monday - It rained so Flamingo land had to wait...
Tuesday Gift shopping, money spending.
Wednesday - Hmm Went to York and agrevated my cold so spent most of thursday snuggled under the duvet... (so no gift shopping could be done), got some gifts earlier but that was that...
Friday got to Flamingo land went on a few things both of which didn't agree with my stomach... hmm can eat raw chilli and seriously strong stuff but no stomache for things like the corkscrew and stuff... :-S I got vertigo just looking at the vertical drop ride "Cliff Hanger"
I kinda also blew it a bit on Tuesday night with the love of my but recovered it enough..

Day 10 of 10 (a little late)

Man what a day, thank god that was my last day as i need a holiday....

Weeeeeee. Out the door @ 7 and no more thinking of work for a whole week and a half... Sleep = Required ; Mode = ZZZZZZZZZZz

Day 5 of 10

Man Sundays at work are boring... nothing to do but sit and wait for something to happen... which don't happen often...
Lots of Tea & food required...
Man only another 5 to go and feck they are gonna be busy (i hope not)....

Sleep... Sleep.... Sleep..... I wish I could sleep before 11:30 (6hrs sleep would be bliss)

Day 3 of 10

Hmm Day 3 of my 10 shifts @ work... Argh... Got what a day mad totally...
Hmm only trouble was , no actuall no trouble just a massive sugar rush lol..
You know the feeling when you see something happen or someone phones and you just have to laugh at it, at the time it's really funny but when you thing about it you thing why was I laughing just then...
Yup it's a Friday Alright...

Car Fixed & Work

Yes.... My Car is fixed :) (happy, happy, Happy - mean someone else don't need to get up early tomorrow and take me to work, dang that means I gotta get up and take me to work)
:| @ cost large end of 165 pound stirling (real money not this euro rubbish :P)

Dang just remembered I gotta work 10 day in a row...
Think of the Pay, Think of the Pay... Think of the Pay..........
Yup Happy again... money will do it everytime (well almost)
thinks of someone and is content and happy

Re: That Clutch

Well it hurts me to quote how much it's gonna cost well lets just say a lot of money 160 pounds or there abouts... Ouch... And I need it fixed for Wednesday so I can get to work and stuff *Prays it fixed* and Im working for 10 days straight so I really need it... ARGH
People Never Learn to drive it's a nice feeling when you've passed your test and stuff but once you have a car it's money all the time....

Hmmmmmmmm

Well dang if this don't blow it, my clutch decides to die on me totally miles from home... thank god I knew where I was...
I really need to get roadside assistance and stuff.
More to the point how much is all this gonna Cost (Shudders)

Got home that is longest slowest drive I have ever taken and never wanna do that again... (have to learn to break down closer to home)
Could Have been worse could have been nearer my girlfriends house which is futher away (lol)

Happy, Happy, Happy

Ah The Weekend is here, Im not working and I get to see my girlfriend....
Watching a few Videos, Ordering Chinese life don't get better than this. *blush, smiles*

A Brief History of Me....

Hmm... Well Now lets see.. Im 28 so this is gonna be a brief history...
I used to like going to school and stuff, even if I was picked on cos I was a "smart" kid, so I could do math quickly in my head, so what lol never saw the harm in that, others did Im not the biggest guy either and my spine is curved (don't ask I may explain that one later)... I've "done" University - a couple of years that were in a way the best years and in others very dark, black, horrible staring into the abyss of death type years where the only thing that saved me was that if I killed myself - I had it all worked out how I was gonna do myself in - I would be hurting my Uni friends, some of my family and most of all My Dog who alas had to be put down about 5 years ago.. After Uni I didn't do much just drifted around did a few courses, applied for and "looked" for work to keep the Employment Services people Happy... During this time I suppose you could say I found myself, very wierd still can't explain it so don't ask...
Then a few years ago I met a girl who I had talked to over the phone and agreed to meet up with just to be her friend (Im being serious here)... Well I would say 5 minutes was all it took for her to steal my heart and we've been together ever since...
That Will do for now... More General Ramblings when I can be bothered lol