Peace...

Ah what a difference a day makes, or rather a fortnight. I can smile more okay there are times still when I feel down but these are fewer. So I think just maybe the "stuff" I'm taking is working. Yes it working I'm seeing the daylight once again.. It's nice. To those that matter thank you..

Who am I?

That is a rather good question don't you think...
Let's see I'll be 35 soon, I stay will my mum, always have really..
I'm really not one for going out at all.
I don't smoke, I drink on a Friday / Saturday night IF i feel like it and can afford it.
I'm a quiet and shy person, happy to let others shine.
I was bullied at school since I was "bright","different" and yeah one of the smallest to boot.
I'm happy to help others.
I'm being the strong one for my mum and my sisters and everyone else who needs me.
I think I'm loosing my mind..
My day is wake up at around 7, get cup of tea and slice of toast for breakfast, check my e-mail and other stuff on my pc while eating breakfast, drive to work getting the paper on the way, work sometimes challenging sometimes not, drive home again, eat dinner, maybe watch the simpsons, grab a shower, sit at pc rest of the evening, go to bed and try to get to sleep maybe getting to sleep at 1am.
Saturdays I generally sleep a little later till maybe 10, shower, check e-mail (well clear the spam out), take mum to lunch then for the weekly shop, back home on the pc after putting shopping away making a cup of tea sometimes.
Sunday is like Saturday but with the lunch and shopping.
I do sometimes look after the nephew so Shopping is either done later on the Saturday or on the Sunday depends.

It's all I see to have the inclination to do.

Ya think I need to get away from it all?

Who listens to the listener...

Who listens to those who listen and help others out?
Who helps those who put others before themselves, hearts on sleeves and all that.
The quiet, shy ones, those willing to stay out of the light so others may shine.

I need help, I think I do - I'm not sure..
I was plucking up the courage to ask someone out when well someone else beat me to the punch, the trouble being they are also a friend of mine, and well you don't steal your mates girl do you... I had to tell her though so she knows how I feel..
I see them "together" and it hurts, between that and the cold I have my emotional state is well "off", just a little.

I need to open up more but well I've always been one to lock it away, no-one needs to know my problems they have enough problems of their own don't they..

Just pray for me dear friends, just pray.

Holding it together even if a bit shaky

Well it's getting towards that time of year again, Christmas :)....
Well I thought today I'll go and get all the Christmas cards and start and get them ready to post out to my far away friends and their families. Yes I mean You dear reader, well many of you, some of you may read this and be disappointed that no card appears, I can hardly send a proper card to an e-mail address so some of you may end up with e-cards.
I was in my usual card shop getting cards, the boxes of card for friends, and the special ones for family. Well there I got smacked with it right in the kisser, "To Mum and Dad at Christmas" or similar and well it got me for a moment, I had a little cry to myself which thankfully no-one saw and composed myself once again when Slade - Christmas Time came on, that helped :) a lot.

So dear friends, when your sending out your cards this year, remember those who've lost someone this year.

So across the miles, virtual or otherwise here a great big hug from me to you guys out there, keep on smiling.

G

My Week / 6 degrees

Here is my real post for today..
So what's been really been happening since my last post on the house.
Well the Painter did come in last Saturday and start doing some work has been here all week, the hall, staircase and landing, the wood work's all been done apart from one piece which can't be done as it's needs to be put back up but that can't go on till the paper goes up of which some had to go back as it was damaged. The walls are all ready for papering now, the ceilings are as well. It has been a lot of work as there is quite a bit of woodwork and a lot of the wall needed to be "skimmed". I went out on Thursday (see my other post today). Oh and is it possible to fuck up more than to kiss a friend when they were feeling bad about themselves or was that a good thing, kissed her goodbye on Thursday as well ? All I can say is my heads screwed up now, hers too, although it was meant to be a simple kiss not how it turned out....
Goes to find shovel so he can bury himself somewhere.

Now moving swiftly on to the other part of the title "6 Degrees".
It is said that there are no more than 6 degrees of separation between person A & person B.
What I'd like you to do is try and get from this blog to your own blog using existing links from either blogrolls or direct post links and post how you did it
i.e Mine > Moogie's World > somewhere else > this one > that one > Your Own blog.
Should be fun I hope.

Valentine's Day

It's that time of year again. What you mean you didn't know, you been living in a cave for the past month. If you've forgotten it might not be too late you know might just be able to get something.
Now it's all lovey dovey today is it not, it's the day your suppose to tell someone you really care about deeply that maybe it's more than care deeply you know maybe whisper those 3 words that although sound really easy to say "I" simple enough, "love" doable I mean you could be saying I love Pizza, "you" is easy too but put all three together and it becomes something exponentially greater than the sum on it's parts, it's a powerful statement.
So maybe today just read this and then go snuggle up to that special someone if you can do something you wouldn't normally do today for your partner, you don't need to go all expensive, sometimes it's just the thought that's gone into whatever you give that counts truely. If you can't be with that special someone a call, an e-mail with a pic maybe or a video clip or just something. You never know you just might make someone's day.

Wait I hear you cry what If I like someone but they don't know how to do I do that, cards, either real or e-cards (if you got their e-mail address), some places do allow anon maybe, even if you think they suspect you like them a little more than just a friend. You just never know they maybe like you a lot too but are afraid to admit it.
You never know who you might find, you just might find the one person in all the world that you just connect with at so many different levels, soul mate why because they can just somehow touch you and touch your soul even without actually physically touching you, it's one of those things that is so hard to explain you just know when it happens. It's the kind of person who you just need to think about and you feel relaxed or you talk to them and your trouble seem to melt away. It is the most surreal, superb and incredibly strange feeling or set of feelings you'll ever have.
I'm kinda feeling that way right now as I write this, I am thinking of one person, they know who they are, as do a few others that read here, okay probably most of my readship truth be told but I'm a private kinda guy.

So Sweetie

Happy Valentines Day.

P.S. Yes people this is a kinda fudged post but hey it's actually hard to write this you know.